As we walk side by side,
and as His love becomes our guide,
we will join hands and be one family
because God's love is what the world should see.
As we build each other up,
He fills our heart with His love,
we will join hands so all the world can see
we are the Lord's own family.
We are the Lord's own family,
our love is what the world see,
and as we uses His love to build each other up
We're building up the Lord's own family
一首我很是喜愛的<<團歌>>. 歌詞很是有意思, 每次唱都溫暖我心.
今天有機會再唱這歌時, 我唱時又再一度熱淚盈眶. (上一次類同事件都差不多是五年前的事罷了, 是團友歡送我植堂時所唱的, 情境爍爍在目 ... 那次的我是強忍著淚水). 今天也是因離別令我再次唱這歌時熱淚盈眶 - 因這是我們送給 Jenny 的一份禮物, 一份心意, 告訴在天家的她, 我們永遠也是她的家人, 她的弟兄姊妹.
追思會中, 述說 Jenny 的一生及分享團契弟兄姊妹 "合筆" 給她寫的一封信 ... 每一個的追憶都是那麼的窩心.
Jenny, 真的很懷念妳, 感謝天父讓我有機會和天使一般的妳於地上相識, 更深信我們會在天家再聚~~ 期盼這一天 ... 但我會好好緊記妳給我們最後的一句說話, 訓勉: 好好珍惜我們的生命氣息, 把握時機盡心事奉主!
Sunday, July 05, 2009
Saturday, June 20, 2009
送給妳的 ...
還不懂得反應, 甚至理性和感性都未有好好溝通, 但忽然很想把內心的重化為這首所謂的詩獻給妳和妳愛的人.
To: Jenny
懷念妳 懷念妳
妳不愛高談闊論 妳卻有細密心意
沒有哈哈大笑 卻有幽默心思
雖沒向妳傾吐心事 卻是相愛相知
細少的妳 勇氣可不少
堅守著信念 默默在作戰
默默承受 默默禱告
卧在病床上 仍為親愛人設想
皆因深信 愛是恆久
懷念妳 懷念妳
我這一位好友
深信妳已在主懷中 受到主愛與看守
活在天堂的一角 等著我們再聚首
懷念妳 永遠懷念妳
我的好友
To: Jenny
懷念妳 懷念妳
妳不愛高談闊論 妳卻有細密心意
沒有哈哈大笑 卻有幽默心思
雖沒向妳傾吐心事 卻是相愛相知
細少的妳 勇氣可不少
堅守著信念 默默在作戰
默默承受 默默禱告
卧在病床上 仍為親愛人設想
皆因深信 愛是恆久
懷念妳 懷念妳
我這一位好友
深信妳已在主懷中 受到主愛與看守
活在天堂的一角 等著我們再聚首
懷念妳 永遠懷念妳
我的好友
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Self-discipline ... Self-control ...
I hate the feeling of running after time, so I prefer being organized and usually would start planning and doing various little stuff ahead to get myself organized ... But May and June has been ridiculous ... Ridiculously busy and full of unexpected/unplanned events.
So here I am feeling pressed of the *SOON* due assignmentSS ... *sigh* ... Yet I am still procrastinating .... Due to seem like a mission impossible, do not have idea as to where to start the biggest assignment, feeling fatigue, being lazy ... etc etc ... can give you (and most importantly myself!!) tons more, yet I know these are all excuses!!
When did I start being a person lack of self-discipline and self-control? Really annoyed and frustrated about it~~ I know it is not by my own strength and will but at times I'm too proud to stop and ask God for the peace and strength; simply want to do it by my strength ... probably just like dealing with this assignment!!! *sigh* Lord, really need your peace, your rest, and your reminder so that I truly know who is God!
"Be still, and know that I am God!"
So here I am feeling pressed of the *SOON* due assignmentSS ... *sigh* ... Yet I am still procrastinating .... Due to seem like a mission impossible, do not have idea as to where to start the biggest assignment, feeling fatigue, being lazy ... etc etc ... can give you (and most importantly myself!!) tons more, yet I know these are all excuses!!
When did I start being a person lack of self-discipline and self-control? Really annoyed and frustrated about it~~ I know it is not by my own strength and will but at times I'm too proud to stop and ask God for the peace and strength; simply want to do it by my strength ... probably just like dealing with this assignment!!! *sigh* Lord, really need your peace, your rest, and your reminder so that I truly know who is God!
"Be still, and know that I am God!"
Saturday, April 04, 2009
My first attempt
Well, there are a few things that I think as a human I need to attempt at least once in life, need to go out of our comfort zone and do it ... I don't know when and why I had this in my mind, yet I am very grateful that God ONLY put more sensible things in my mind over the years (more a meaningful activity vs a dare).
This time ... I am attempting Famine 30 (note the tense!). Seriously, it is much a harder decision for me than many other things that I have decided to do before .. because I know I don't have the best stomach. Stomach is one of my weakest point, and I get stomachache easily ... I am not very comfortable (of cuz it is not going out of my comfort zone in the first place, but it is uncomfortable to another level), and thus have been thinking whether I should do it. At last, I decided to give it a try without officially registered for I truly question if I can really handle the 30 hours - haha .. so little faith I have!
For the first 12 hours or so, it does not affect me much physically ... However, during our gathering and sharing time with other brothers and sisters from church who are doing it as well, the notion of choice suddenly hits me! Yes, I am "starving," yet so full of my own will, and I always know that if my physical condition cannot handle it, I could quit anytime for my own sake. Yet there are millions and millions of people (most are children too who are physically weaker than I am) on this earth who are being put to starve unwillingly. Some even don't know what "starvation" is for they never had been full all their lives!! As I was enjoying my meals everyday, do I realize the injustice in this world? Do I remember those who are suffering, or do I simply give thanks for my food - delicious, hot, and good food?
As it is approaching 15 hours, the mid-point mark, I am thinking ... yes, the stats is really true (Stats regarding the fact that we will still be healthy and functioning as usual if we eat only half of what we normally eat.). I am still functioning and functioning well with only water and juice~ We, people in developed countries, are really consuming too much on this earth!! If we all cut our food consumption by half, there would be way fewer famine and people living in hunger in the world.
(updated April 4 - evening)
The second half of the 30 hours was not too bad, partly because a few hours had been spent in sleep, and then surprisingly (and thankfully) my stomach was very calm, it might sound a couple times but I don't feel much hunger nor pain. Instead, I started to feel a bit cold in the morning. As I was putting on more clothes, I think of those in hunger - when they are weak and cold, do they have extra clothing to be put on and keep them warm?
As I continue to ponder why I don't feel much hungry, I believe it is because I constantly drinking water and at times fruit juice (at times I felt headaches, but usually it disappeared after taking some fruit juice) ... How about those in the 3rd world? How many of them have clean drinking water to consume? How many would have juice to supplement the "missing food"?
The hardest time for me is the last hour, not so much in terms of hunger for me .. but energy level ... I felt like sleeping all the time though I am not tired physically. I was not doing any vigorous physical activity which requires lots of energy, I simple was reading a book (trust me, it wasn't that boring) but I found it hard to concentrate and keep shutting my eyes unconsciously very often. At last, I needed to keep myself physically busy to keep awake (really don't wanna let the last hour went by in sleep "unconsciously," would want to really experience it to the best I can). I suppose it is probably the effect of not having enough nutrition / sugar in body? Food not only affects our physical condition, but our condition, for instance, to learn as well. During this financial tsunami, we often talked about retrain workers. For workers in the 3rd world, even though there are resources to retrain them, if their living condition does not get improved, it will take them extra energy and extra effort to be retrained. Do the general public understand that or would they simply think they are not as smart and look down on them? The lack of food in the 3rd world is no small business!
After the experience, I found it quite an irony. ON the one hand, we tried to experience and feel how those in hunger feel, on the other, we can never truly experience it for we have many protective shields to ensure our health and safety (Don't get me wrong, I am not saying they are not important!) which those in the 3rd world do not have the luxury of having.
However, I am truly thankful for the experience! Thank you Lord for giving me the chance and sustaining me to go through the full 30 hours in famine to understand more of how those in hunger feel. Praying that I will not forget any of the above lessons but continue to strive for justice in this world for those are our fellow brothers and sisters being created in the SAME image of God.
If you have a chance to read this entry of my blog and feel the need of helping those in hunger and poverty, you may consider getting an adopted child in a 3rd world country or help support (financially, physically, prayerfully, or in any creative ways) some of those organizations who are working very hard to minimize the number of hungers and poverty in this world. In case you are interested, one of my favorite organization in this area is Compassion - www.compassion.ca~~ ^.^
This time ... I am attempting Famine 30 (note the tense!). Seriously, it is much a harder decision for me than many other things that I have decided to do before .. because I know I don't have the best stomach. Stomach is one of my weakest point, and I get stomachache easily ... I am not very comfortable (of cuz it is not going out of my comfort zone in the first place, but it is uncomfortable to another level), and thus have been thinking whether I should do it. At last, I decided to give it a try without officially registered for I truly question if I can really handle the 30 hours - haha .. so little faith I have!
For the first 12 hours or so, it does not affect me much physically ... However, during our gathering and sharing time with other brothers and sisters from church who are doing it as well, the notion of choice suddenly hits me! Yes, I am "starving," yet so full of my own will, and I always know that if my physical condition cannot handle it, I could quit anytime for my own sake. Yet there are millions and millions of people (most are children too who are physically weaker than I am) on this earth who are being put to starve unwillingly. Some even don't know what "starvation" is for they never had been full all their lives!! As I was enjoying my meals everyday, do I realize the injustice in this world? Do I remember those who are suffering, or do I simply give thanks for my food - delicious, hot, and good food?
As it is approaching 15 hours, the mid-point mark, I am thinking ... yes, the stats is really true (Stats regarding the fact that we will still be healthy and functioning as usual if we eat only half of what we normally eat.). I am still functioning and functioning well with only water and juice~ We, people in developed countries, are really consuming too much on this earth!! If we all cut our food consumption by half, there would be way fewer famine and people living in hunger in the world.
(updated April 4 - evening)
The second half of the 30 hours was not too bad, partly because a few hours had been spent in sleep, and then surprisingly (and thankfully) my stomach was very calm, it might sound a couple times but I don't feel much hunger nor pain. Instead, I started to feel a bit cold in the morning. As I was putting on more clothes, I think of those in hunger - when they are weak and cold, do they have extra clothing to be put on and keep them warm?
As I continue to ponder why I don't feel much hungry, I believe it is because I constantly drinking water and at times fruit juice (at times I felt headaches, but usually it disappeared after taking some fruit juice) ... How about those in the 3rd world? How many of them have clean drinking water to consume? How many would have juice to supplement the "missing food"?
The hardest time for me is the last hour, not so much in terms of hunger for me .. but energy level ... I felt like sleeping all the time though I am not tired physically. I was not doing any vigorous physical activity which requires lots of energy, I simple was reading a book (trust me, it wasn't that boring) but I found it hard to concentrate and keep shutting my eyes unconsciously very often. At last, I needed to keep myself physically busy to keep awake (really don't wanna let the last hour went by in sleep "unconsciously," would want to really experience it to the best I can). I suppose it is probably the effect of not having enough nutrition / sugar in body? Food not only affects our physical condition, but our condition, for instance, to learn as well. During this financial tsunami, we often talked about retrain workers. For workers in the 3rd world, even though there are resources to retrain them, if their living condition does not get improved, it will take them extra energy and extra effort to be retrained. Do the general public understand that or would they simply think they are not as smart and look down on them? The lack of food in the 3rd world is no small business!
After the experience, I found it quite an irony. ON the one hand, we tried to experience and feel how those in hunger feel, on the other, we can never truly experience it for we have many protective shields to ensure our health and safety (Don't get me wrong, I am not saying they are not important!) which those in the 3rd world do not have the luxury of having.
However, I am truly thankful for the experience! Thank you Lord for giving me the chance and sustaining me to go through the full 30 hours in famine to understand more of how those in hunger feel. Praying that I will not forget any of the above lessons but continue to strive for justice in this world for those are our fellow brothers and sisters being created in the SAME image of God.
If you have a chance to read this entry of my blog and feel the need of helping those in hunger and poverty, you may consider getting an adopted child in a 3rd world country or help support (financially, physically, prayerfully, or in any creative ways) some of those organizations who are working very hard to minimize the number of hungers and poverty in this world. In case you are interested, one of my favorite organization in this area is Compassion - www.compassion.ca~~ ^.^
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Abraham's faith
I think I can better apprehend the faith of Abraham ... but may be I'm still a long way.
Be obedient even to give up your seemingly one and only last hope!! Hope that is so dear to your heart and one that God promised - be father of many many. If I were Abraham walking up the hill ... what would I do? Would I even walk up the hill?
It is already hard to give up something that you hope for, not to mention when the possibility of "reoccurence" is super slim, if not impossible! You are like giving up your ONE and LAST chance that can make your dream/hope come true!!
Really need lots of wisdom, courage and guidance from God! My only assurance is in God Himself, not that He can fulfill and give, but He will for sure be with me no matter what! Is my faith big and strong enough? Lord, teach me and show me!
Be obedient even to give up your seemingly one and only last hope!! Hope that is so dear to your heart and one that God promised - be father of many many. If I were Abraham walking up the hill ... what would I do? Would I even walk up the hill?
It is already hard to give up something that you hope for, not to mention when the possibility of "reoccurence" is super slim, if not impossible! You are like giving up your ONE and LAST chance that can make your dream/hope come true!!
Really need lots of wisdom, courage and guidance from God! My only assurance is in God Himself, not that He can fulfill and give, but He will for sure be with me no matter what! Is my faith big and strong enough? Lord, teach me and show me!
Friday, February 20, 2009
You surely will not die / 你們決不會死
Though hard, the more I studied Hebrew, the more I enjoyed it. Especially enjoy the insights and discussions with friends (classmates) from reading the bible from its original language, without any massage from interpretations etc.
Here to share with you my finding from two verses, they are both out of Genesis.
Gen 2:18: Then the LORD God said, "It is not good for the man to be alone; I will make him a helper suitable for him." (NASB)
A very familiar passage yet also with many controversies. Some feminists would suggest since God use "helper" to describe woman, whom God created after He said this, and that "helper" is a term commonly used to describe God being a helper of man throughout Psalms, women are actually superior to men!
Reading this passage in Hebrew is actually interesting. We noted that there is one word in Hebrew that's not being translated in any of the English version bible - kenegdo, which literally means "like/as his opposite". From our discussion, we believed it is best translated as "like his counterpart", which emphasizes the equalness of the two genders, no one is superior than the other or subordinate to the other. Of course, we also was wondering how come this never got translated in the bible ... I wonder if it were translated in the first place, would it not help diminished the many arguments between men and women to be the superior?
The second passage I came across lately is from Gen 3:4, which have couple translations, or I should say interpretations.
Interpretation #1 - You will not die
NASB - The serpent said to the woman, "You surely will not die!"
新譯本 - 蛇 對 女 人 說 ： 你 們 決 不 會 死
Interpretation #2 - You may not die
KJV - And the serpent said unto the woman, Ye shall not surely die
NIV - "You will not surely die," the serpent said to the woman.
和合本 - 蛇 對 女 人 說 ： 你 們 不 一 定 死 ；
In Interpretation #1, the serpent is giving a clear message to the woman that she will not die from eating the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil, whereas in #2, the serpent is only giving a suggestion that may be she won't die from eating.
From the Hebrew text, there is a "no/not" word in the phrase, and then the rest of the phase is a strong emphasis expressing that one will die. Based on the Hebrew grammar, it should really mean that the serpent is confidently saying to the woman that they will not die. The whole discussion was brought up as many in class had heard sermons about the serpent tempted the woman by suggesting that they may not die from eating instead of the serpent telling the woman that they will not die.
The above also attested to something that I was looking into earlier regarding the origin of the 和合本 Bible. This translation was being translated by missionaries to China in the 18th C, and its translation of Gen3:4 coincides with that of the KJV and NIV somehow attesting to that the translation was highly influenced by the English translation verses the original language. Of course, we cannot draw conclusion from one evidence, yet it is interesting to note.
Both of the above are very good discussions, and they give me joy and encouragement to continue to learn the original languages of the Bible~~
Here to share with you my finding from two verses, they are both out of Genesis.
Gen 2:18: Then the LORD God said, "It is not good for the man to be alone; I will make him a helper suitable for him." (NASB)
A very familiar passage yet also with many controversies. Some feminists would suggest since God use "helper" to describe woman, whom God created after He said this, and that "helper" is a term commonly used to describe God being a helper of man throughout Psalms, women are actually superior to men!
Reading this passage in Hebrew is actually interesting. We noted that there is one word in Hebrew that's not being translated in any of the English version bible - kenegdo, which literally means "like/as his opposite". From our discussion, we believed it is best translated as "like his counterpart", which emphasizes the equalness of the two genders, no one is superior than the other or subordinate to the other. Of course, we also was wondering how come this never got translated in the bible ... I wonder if it were translated in the first place, would it not help diminished the many arguments between men and women to be the superior?
The second passage I came across lately is from Gen 3:4, which have couple translations, or I should say interpretations.
Interpretation #1 - You will not die
NASB - The serpent said to the woman, "You surely will not die!"
新譯本 - 蛇 對 女 人 說 ： 你 們 決 不 會 死
Interpretation #2 - You may not die
KJV - And the serpent said unto the woman, Ye shall not surely die
NIV - "You will not surely die," the serpent said to the woman.
和合本 - 蛇 對 女 人 說 ： 你 們 不 一 定 死 ；
In Interpretation #1, the serpent is giving a clear message to the woman that she will not die from eating the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil, whereas in #2, the serpent is only giving a suggestion that may be she won't die from eating.
From the Hebrew text, there is a "no/not" word in the phrase, and then the rest of the phase is a strong emphasis expressing that one will die. Based on the Hebrew grammar, it should really mean that the serpent is confidently saying to the woman that they will not die. The whole discussion was brought up as many in class had heard sermons about the serpent tempted the woman by suggesting that they may not die from eating instead of the serpent telling the woman that they will not die.
The above also attested to something that I was looking into earlier regarding the origin of the 和合本 Bible. This translation was being translated by missionaries to China in the 18th C, and its translation of Gen3:4 coincides with that of the KJV and NIV somehow attesting to that the translation was highly influenced by the English translation verses the original language. Of course, we cannot draw conclusion from one evidence, yet it is interesting to note.
Both of the above are very good discussions, and they give me joy and encouragement to continue to learn the original languages of the Bible~~
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Lecture in the Dark
As usual we had our class tonight at 6:30pm ... at around 7:20/25pm, the light suddenly went out. When we look out of the building, the neighborhood was out of light and so were street lights. Given that everyone was eager to continue on the discussion and to hear the insights from the professor on the topic, we all agreed to continue on despite there was only very limited lighting - from emergency lights out at the hallway, and some classmates' laptop screen.
Amazingly, we continued studying like that for another half an hour patiently and hoping that electricity will be back again. Unfortunately, there was still no electricity in school and the surrounding neighborhood that we had to cut our class short and ended at 8pm.
It was quite an experience having a lecture in almost complete darkness, and fun to continue pressing on my cell phone for some lighting to help me make more organized notes. What I found was really amazing is that despite the severe learning continue, everyone was still very eager to learn, and the professor was diligently teaching and giving all that he had. That is a beautiful picture - very comparable to one of my favorites "glow in the dark".
Amazingly, we continued studying like that for another half an hour patiently and hoping that electricity will be back again. Unfortunately, there was still no electricity in school and the surrounding neighborhood that we had to cut our class short and ended at 8pm.
It was quite an experience having a lecture in almost complete darkness, and fun to continue pressing on my cell phone for some lighting to help me make more organized notes. What I found was really amazing is that despite the severe learning continue, everyone was still very eager to learn, and the professor was diligently teaching and giving all that he had. That is a beautiful picture - very comparable to one of my favorites "glow in the dark".
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Extra caution needed on weekend/holiday driving!!
I was on the road very early today to drop my brother off at the airport. Weather was nice ... traffic was good as it wasn't too busy, was able to drive max speed. Yet while I was enjoying my ride on my way back home, within 10 min, I witnessed couple EXTREMELY dangerous "ACTS" on the highway. First, a car was trying to get into the highway from a ramp, obviously couple cars in front of me had slowed down for him/her to get out from the ramp .. yet the driver still hesitated and ended up staying in the soon-ended lane. As a result, it came to a full stop at the little "triangular" space between the right lane and the lane from the ramp; everyone drove by it slowly and cautiously. Witnessing that, I fear for him/her ... wondering how he/she is ever going to get into the highway safely? All the cars passing by is at a speed of close to 80km/h if not 100km/h or more, while it needs to accelerate from 0km/h.
Then shortly after, when I was about to take the ramp off to Yonge St, I saw a car with white light slowly BACKING out from the ramp!! It scared me BIG time!! It did safely reached the "triangular" area where the lanes split as I drove passed it .. but it was extremely scary. What if I didn't see it and didn't get to slow down/ stop in time??
Really not sure what to say ... other than ... Drive with extra caution on weekends and holidays, my friends!! Though traffic is less, the road might be more dangerous than driving on weekday rush hours!! *sigh*
Then shortly after, when I was about to take the ramp off to Yonge St, I saw a car with white light slowly BACKING out from the ramp!! It scared me BIG time!! It did safely reached the "triangular" area where the lanes split as I drove passed it .. but it was extremely scary. What if I didn't see it and didn't get to slow down/ stop in time??
Really not sure what to say ... other than ... Drive with extra caution on weekends and holidays, my friends!! Though traffic is less, the road might be more dangerous than driving on weekday rush hours!! *sigh*
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
滿有恩典的交通意外 A very blessed car accident
交通意外絕對是我想避免的, 無論是大是小, 總要花上好些時間去處理事件. 與其他相關車主交涉, 報案, 報燕梳, 煩煩複複 ...
今天, 一個絕對寒冷非常的日子, 我便遇上了交通意外 ... 被撞的一刻, 感到相當的無奈, 憁惱 ... 但當事件繼續發展我看到神對我莫大的看顧及恩典 ...
1. 剛與父母親吃畢午飯, 他們便在附近, 很快便能到場協助 =)
2. 因我和父母飯後原要到不同的地方, 所以各自駕車, 父母並沒有同車, 以致沒有受傷.
3. 因下著微雪, 地面非常滑, 駕駛速不度不高, 也因地面沒有太大的阻力, 減少對我及車的受損. (被撞時, 我只感到我的車子是飄著, 不是被推著!) 雖然對方的車子是直接撞向我的位置(司機車門), 但我並沒有損傷.
4. 神給我出乎意外的平安, 以致我能沈靜地與各方交涉.
5. 對方車主願意合作地交換車牌, 燕梳等資料.
6. 因沒有人受傷, 911 說不用派警察到場; 但在最適當的時候便有一輛警車路過, 助我們達到共識~~
7. 將近農曆新年, 不用花費太多, 車子便可以有一件"新衣" - 正確來說是新門 =).
神的恩典真是遠超我所想所求, 也真是十分的夠我用!! 謝謝您, 天父, 您時常的看守及無微不致的愛護!
Car accident, no matter big or small, is something I wanna avoid. Lots of time and efforts are needed to take care of one ... to communicate with the other involved drivers, reporting to police, reporting to insurance ... very time consuming and tiring.
Today, an extremely cold day, I had a car accident ... I felt really depressed and frustrated when I got hit ... but seeing how everything unflowed, I see the Great Big love and protection of God ...
1. Just had lunch with parents, so they were nearby and could come assist very shortly.
2. As me and my parents were planning to go different places after lunch that we both drove, parents weren't in the same car with me, so that they were not hurt or anything.
3. Due to the snowy weather, the ground was very wet, both car weren't driving in high speed. Also due to the wetness, friction was greatly reduced that protected me and also reduced the damage of my car (when my car got hit, I felt that me and my car were flying instead of being pushed - a very smooth slide over). Though the other car hit directly to the driver's door, I wasn't injured.
4. God gave me peace that I could be calm in dealing with various parties.
5. The other driver was cooperative in exchanging information, such as driver's license, insurance etc
6. Initially, the 911 call center said they are not going to call any cop over as no one was injured; but at the most suitable time, a cop drove by and helped us get things settled.
7. My car can have a "new coat" (to be exact, a new door) for the Chinese New Year, without me having to spend much.
God's blessings are way beyond what I can imagine, and for sure are more than enough for me!! Thank you Lord, thank you for your protection and care ALWAYS!! Really really thankful~~
今天, 一個絕對寒冷非常的日子, 我便遇上了交通意外 ... 被撞的一刻, 感到相當的無奈, 憁惱 ... 但當事件繼續發展我看到神對我莫大的看顧及恩典 ...
1. 剛與父母親吃畢午飯, 他們便在附近, 很快便能到場協助 =)
2. 因我和父母飯後原要到不同的地方, 所以各自駕車, 父母並沒有同車, 以致沒有受傷.
3. 因下著微雪, 地面非常滑, 駕駛速不度不高, 也因地面沒有太大的阻力, 減少對我及車的受損. (被撞時, 我只感到我的車子是飄著, 不是被推著!) 雖然對方的車子是直接撞向我的位置(司機車門), 但我並沒有損傷.
4. 神給我出乎意外的平安, 以致我能沈靜地與各方交涉.
5. 對方車主願意合作地交換車牌, 燕梳等資料.
6. 因沒有人受傷, 911 說不用派警察到場; 但在最適當的時候便有一輛警車路過, 助我們達到共識~~
7. 將近農曆新年, 不用花費太多, 車子便可以有一件"新衣" - 正確來說是新門 =).
神的恩典真是遠超我所想所求, 也真是十分的夠我用!! 謝謝您, 天父, 您時常的看守及無微不致的愛護!
Car accident, no matter big or small, is something I wanna avoid. Lots of time and efforts are needed to take care of one ... to communicate with the other involved drivers, reporting to police, reporting to insurance ... very time consuming and tiring.
Today, an extremely cold day, I had a car accident ... I felt really depressed and frustrated when I got hit ... but seeing how everything unflowed, I see the Great Big love and protection of God ...
1. Just had lunch with parents, so they were nearby and could come assist very shortly.
2. As me and my parents were planning to go different places after lunch that we both drove, parents weren't in the same car with me, so that they were not hurt or anything.
3. Due to the snowy weather, the ground was very wet, both car weren't driving in high speed. Also due to the wetness, friction was greatly reduced that protected me and also reduced the damage of my car (when my car got hit, I felt that me and my car were flying instead of being pushed - a very smooth slide over). Though the other car hit directly to the driver's door, I wasn't injured.
4. God gave me peace that I could be calm in dealing with various parties.
5. The other driver was cooperative in exchanging information, such as driver's license, insurance etc
6. Initially, the 911 call center said they are not going to call any cop over as no one was injured; but at the most suitable time, a cop drove by and helped us get things settled.
7. My car can have a "new coat" (to be exact, a new door) for the Chinese New Year, without me having to spend much.
God's blessings are way beyond what I can imagine, and for sure are more than enough for me!! Thank you Lord, thank you for your protection and care ALWAYS!! Really really thankful~~
Thursday, August 28, 2008
閒, 我所欲也 ...
今年的夏季是特別的, 沒有遊長的假期, 只想好好的放一個假, 休息一下, 放開懷抱放眼看看周遭的人與事 ... 安靜 ...
哈, 可惜 ... 原來我還是真的不太懂安靜, 休息. 無怪神常常要不斷提醒我: 你們要休息, 要知道我是神!!
閒, 我所欲也, 閱讀, 亦我所欲也; 二者不可得兼，舍閒而取閱讀者也。
哈哈, 不知何來的文采, 突然很想 "quote" 以上的一句古詞 ... haha
你現在又是在作什麼決定, 要舍什而取之呢?
哈, 可惜 ... 原來我還是真的不太懂安靜, 休息. 無怪神常常要不斷提醒我: 你們要休息, 要知道我是神!!
閒, 我所欲也, 閱讀, 亦我所欲也; 二者不可得兼，舍閒而取閱讀者也。
哈哈, 不知何來的文采, 突然很想 "quote" 以上的一句古詞 ... haha
你現在又是在作什麼決定, 要舍什而取之呢?
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Would you please help?
I am currently working on one of my research projects, and need your help to fill out a short survey for me. They are only 9 to 10 questions long. You would fill out only one of the two. Would you help?
A. If you are a regular internet user and had NOT had any interactive online church experience (such as lifechurch.tv and second life church), please fill out this survey - http://www.polldaddy.com/s/D45E6C712101184E/
B. If you had interactive online church experience before, then please fill out this survey - http://www.polldaddy.com/s/82850BEA77C77B8E/
My research topic is "the E-culture and the Church." I would like to look into the impact of the prevailing internet culture to the Church. Since the topic is rather big, I would mainly focus on the emerging interactive online church ministry. Your help in filling the survey would be greatly appreciated!!
Thank you very much!
A. If you are a regular internet user and had NOT had any interactive online church experience (such as lifechurch.tv and second life church), please fill out this survey - http://www.polldaddy.com/s/D45E6C712101184E/
B. If you had interactive online church experience before, then please fill out this survey - http://www.polldaddy.com/s/82850BEA77C77B8E/
My research topic is "the E-culture and the Church." I would like to look into the impact of the prevailing internet culture to the Church. Since the topic is rather big, I would mainly focus on the emerging interactive online church ministry. Your help in filling the survey would be greatly appreciated!!
Thank you very much!
Monday, June 09, 2008
"有感而慟" 之後 ... Post Lament Youth
走出士浸, 走出有感而慟的音樂賑災晚會, 回到家後便立刻在網上尋找這一個深深感動我的她 - 她的故事, 及屬於她的歌.
她便是袁文婷, 一個只有二十六歲的小一教師 ... 她的優越不只在她的課堂上的教導, 更在她的生命中流露出來 ...
這是她的一剪影 ...
82年出生的她, 幼年喪父, 至幼與母親相依為命 ...
在民主小學任一年級語文老師, 平時較沈默 ...
但對她的工作卻是至誠, 滿有抱負 ... "“每一個學生都是我的孩子，他們都才六七歲，好像一張白纸，他們的未來都在我的手中，我是他們的啟蒙教師 ..."
二零零八年五月十二日 ... 當地開始搖動, 袁老師大聲吼叫: "地震了, 大家快跑 ... " 但很多學生都因驚慌呆站, 走不動 ... 她快速的奔跑, 抱著小孩往外跑 ... 一個 ... 兩個 ... 三個 ... 一次又一次走進教室把孩子救出來 ... 總共是十三次!! 當她放下第十三名小孩吳佳輝後, 又一箭步走進教室 ... "嘭" 的一聲教室倒塌了 ... 被救的小孩都哭嚷著: "袁老師還在裡面 ... "
一個小時後, 緊急救援部隊在癈墟裡找到她, 她身下還有九名小孩 ... 她頭朝下, 雙臂張開, 手都是撘在孩子們身上的 ... 她的青春定格在二十六歲 ...
除了袁文婷和九個孩子, 一年級一班的其他學生全都安全!!
她的朋友及同事作了一首歌"讓我為你點燃一盞燭光"記念她, 其中以下的歌詞最為吸引我 ...
勇敢不是簡單一句語言
勇敢不是只有戰士的陽剛
勇敢是人生價值最美麗的閃光點
....
是你 把死亡留給自己
把希望留給了別人
....
是你 用生命告訴我們
有一種愛叫做永恆
相信在今次四川地震中, 配得我們以歌頌揚記念的又何止一位呢? 可能有更多動人故事都未為人知, 又怎或是永無人知. 但他們的用心 - 把別人的生命燃亮, 帶給這世界一點點的希望, 這一個勇敢的決定是我們不能否定的 ... 但不要讓這決定停止, 讓我們繼續燃點, 繼續燃亮吧~~
袁文婷在地震短短的兩分鐘作了一個勇敢的決定 ... 你我在這世代活著的決定又是什麼? 是否為著自己的學業, 前途, 家庭, 健康等問題仍卻步不前? 是否因擔心, 憂慮, 忿怒, 失望, 不願面對明天? 年輕人, 讓我們都鼓起勇氣, 不再瑟縮家中, 沈醉在自我的夢境裡, 昂然踏上前路吧!! 與各人一同前行吧! 這世界需要你我~~ We are the world!
"一宿雖然有哭泣，早晨便必歡呼。" (詩三十: 5)
這黑夜可能是艱苦漫長, 但深信因有拯救的神, 因有同行的人, 我們有力量迎接早晨!
"不可叫人小看你年輕，總要在言語、行為、愛心、信心、清潔上，都作信徒的榜樣。" (提前四: 12)
袁文婷沒有因為年輕退縮, 她的行為, 愛心都作了多人的榜樣 ... 唯眾人所敬重~~
在聚會終結前, 大會向眾人發出一個挑戰 ... 叫我們都把繞著黃絲帶的手伸出, 感受一下在瓦礫中伸出軟弱的手盼望被救的災民的感受 ... 我們只舉了短短的十數分鐘 ... 他們卻是在黑暗中等候了數十小時 ... 雖然這真是微不足道, 但讓我們真的不要忘記去感受, 不要被過度的資訊痳林. 願我們不要忘記: "與哀哭的人要同哭" (羅十二: 15). 就如今早牧師說: "若一個肢體受苦，所有的肢體就一同受苦." (林前十二: 26). 讓我們不要再活在自己的小世界了~~
共勉之~~
有關更多袁文婷的資料: http://baike.baidu.com/view/1600966.html
收聽"讓我為你點燃一盞燭光"
Flash http://xcb.suse.edu.cn/drzg.swf
mp3 http://xcb.suse.edu.cn/让我为你点燃烛光.mp3
Walking out of SCBC, out from Lament Youth Concert, I quickly went home, and the first thing I did was to get on the internet and research more about this girl - her touching story, and her song.
Her name is Yuen Man-Ting, 26, grade 1 teacher. She is outstanding not only on her teaching, but on how she live out her life ... The following is an "abstract" of it.
Born in 82, lost her dad when she's little and lives with her mom since ...
Teaching Grade 1 Chinese in "Man Zhu Primary School", was kinda quiet ...
She is full of passions and expectations towards her teaching ... "Everyone of my student is my child. They are only 6 / 7 years old, like a white sheet of paper, their futures are all in my hands, I am their mentor, their inspiring teacher ... "
May 12, 2008 ... when the ground started shaking, Teacher Yuen shouted: "It's earthquake, run quickly!!" But many of the students were shocked and stunned ... not knowing to fled for life ... She quickly moved, grabing a child and went out of the building ... one ... two ... three ... again and again, going back and forth to save the children one by one ... for a total of 13!! When she put down the 13th child "Wu Kai Fei", she ran quickly again into the classroom .... "BANG!" ... the roof collapsed ... the saved children all cried and shouted: "Teacher Yuen is still inside ... "
An hour later, the crisis recovery team came and found her and 9 children in the debris ... Face down, arms open, over the bodies of the children .... Her time stopped at the age of 26 ...
Other than Teacher Yuen and the 9 children, all the other students from the Grade 1 class were safe!!
Her colleagues and friends wrote a song - "Let me light a candle for you" - to memorialize her. The following except lyrics especially touched me:
Brave is not a simple sentence
Brave is not merely the strength of the warriors
Brave is the most beautiful spark of one's value
...
It's You leave death to yourself
leaving hope for others
...
It's You use your life to tell us
there is a love called eternal
I believe there are many more who worth our praises and memorial for their actions in this disaster of Sichuan. May be a lot more touching stories not yet known, or would never be known ... but they all have a message - to light up others' lives, to give a bit more hope to the world. Their brave decisions aren't what we can deny ... Don't let this decision stop, let us continue ... continue to light up!!
Yuen Man-Ting made brave decisions during the short couple-minutes of earthquake ... What about you and me? What are our decisions for those who are alive? Are we still stuck and troubled by our school, career, family, or health problems? Do we refuse to look at tomorrow for our worries, anxieties, anger, or disappointments? Young people, let us be courageous, not hide behind our comfy homes, not be drowned in our own dreams ... march onwards!! Step forward with everyone! This world needs you and me~~ We are the world!!
"Weeping may last for the night, But a shout of joy comes in the morning." (Psalm 30:5)
This night may be rough and long, but due to the Saviour, due to many companions, we will have the strength to wait till the morning!
"Let no one look down on your youthfulness, but rather in speech, conduct, love, faith and purity, show yourself an example of those who believe." (1Timothy 4:12)
Yuen Man-Ting did not back off due to her youthfulness, her action, love became an example of many ... she's being respected by many~~
Before the end of the concert, the organizer gave us all a challenge ... a challenge to stretch out our arm with the yellow ribbon - to feel how those waiting to be saved under the debris felt as they awaited to be saved ... We did this for a full 10 minutes, but they ... they did it in complete darkness for tens of hours ... This is really nothing in comparison, but let us not forget to feel even by little ... let us not be indifferent due to the flooding of information we get each day. Let us not forget to "weep with those who weep" (Romans 12:15). Just as Reverend said this morning: "And if one member suffers, all the members suffer with it" (1Corinthian 12:26). Let us not only live in our own little world~~
Let's keep reminding each other about it~~
More info about Yuen Man-Ting (but in Chinese): http://baike.baidu.com/view/1600966.html
Listen to "Let me light a candle for you" (Mandarin)
Flash http://xcb.suse.edu.cn/drzg.swf
mp3 http://xcb.suse.edu.cn/让我为你点燃烛光.mp3
她便是袁文婷, 一個只有二十六歲的小一教師 ... 她的優越不只在她的課堂上的教導, 更在她的生命中流露出來 ...
這是她的一剪影 ...
82年出生的她, 幼年喪父, 至幼與母親相依為命 ...
在民主小學任一年級語文老師, 平時較沈默 ...
但對她的工作卻是至誠, 滿有抱負 ... "“每一個學生都是我的孩子，他們都才六七歲，好像一張白纸，他們的未來都在我的手中，我是他們的啟蒙教師 ..."
二零零八年五月十二日 ... 當地開始搖動, 袁老師大聲吼叫: "地震了, 大家快跑 ... " 但很多學生都因驚慌呆站, 走不動 ... 她快速的奔跑, 抱著小孩往外跑 ... 一個 ... 兩個 ... 三個 ... 一次又一次走進教室把孩子救出來 ... 總共是十三次!! 當她放下第十三名小孩吳佳輝後, 又一箭步走進教室 ... "嘭" 的一聲教室倒塌了 ... 被救的小孩都哭嚷著: "袁老師還在裡面 ... "
一個小時後, 緊急救援部隊在癈墟裡找到她, 她身下還有九名小孩 ... 她頭朝下, 雙臂張開, 手都是撘在孩子們身上的 ... 她的青春定格在二十六歲 ...
除了袁文婷和九個孩子, 一年級一班的其他學生全都安全!!
她的朋友及同事作了一首歌"讓我為你點燃一盞燭光"記念她, 其中以下的歌詞最為吸引我 ...
勇敢不是簡單一句語言
勇敢不是只有戰士的陽剛
勇敢是人生價值最美麗的閃光點
....
是你 把死亡留給自己
把希望留給了別人
....
是你 用生命告訴我們
有一種愛叫做永恆
相信在今次四川地震中, 配得我們以歌頌揚記念的又何止一位呢? 可能有更多動人故事都未為人知, 又怎或是永無人知. 但他們的用心 - 把別人的生命燃亮, 帶給這世界一點點的希望, 這一個勇敢的決定是我們不能否定的 ... 但不要讓這決定停止, 讓我們繼續燃點, 繼續燃亮吧~~
袁文婷在地震短短的兩分鐘作了一個勇敢的決定 ... 你我在這世代活著的決定又是什麼? 是否為著自己的學業, 前途, 家庭, 健康等問題仍卻步不前? 是否因擔心, 憂慮, 忿怒, 失望, 不願面對明天? 年輕人, 讓我們都鼓起勇氣, 不再瑟縮家中, 沈醉在自我的夢境裡, 昂然踏上前路吧!! 與各人一同前行吧! 這世界需要你我~~ We are the world!
"一宿雖然有哭泣，早晨便必歡呼。" (詩三十: 5)
這黑夜可能是艱苦漫長, 但深信因有拯救的神, 因有同行的人, 我們有力量迎接早晨!
"不可叫人小看你年輕，總要在言語、行為、愛心、信心、清潔上，都作信徒的榜樣。" (提前四: 12)
袁文婷沒有因為年輕退縮, 她的行為, 愛心都作了多人的榜樣 ... 唯眾人所敬重~~
在聚會終結前, 大會向眾人發出一個挑戰 ... 叫我們都把繞著黃絲帶的手伸出, 感受一下在瓦礫中伸出軟弱的手盼望被救的災民的感受 ... 我們只舉了短短的十數分鐘 ... 他們卻是在黑暗中等候了數十小時 ... 雖然這真是微不足道, 但讓我們真的不要忘記去感受, 不要被過度的資訊痳林. 願我們不要忘記: "與哀哭的人要同哭" (羅十二: 15). 就如今早牧師說: "若一個肢體受苦，所有的肢體就一同受苦." (林前十二: 26). 讓我們不要再活在自己的小世界了~~
共勉之~~
有關更多袁文婷的資料: http://baike.baidu.com/view/1600966.html
收聽"讓我為你點燃一盞燭光"
Flash http://xcb.suse.edu.cn/drzg.swf
mp3 http://xcb.suse.edu.cn/让我为你点燃烛光.mp3
Walking out of SCBC, out from Lament Youth Concert, I quickly went home, and the first thing I did was to get on the internet and research more about this girl - her touching story, and her song.
Her name is Yuen Man-Ting, 26, grade 1 teacher. She is outstanding not only on her teaching, but on how she live out her life ... The following is an "abstract" of it.
Born in 82, lost her dad when she's little and lives with her mom since ...
Teaching Grade 1 Chinese in "Man Zhu Primary School", was kinda quiet ...
She is full of passions and expectations towards her teaching ... "Everyone of my student is my child. They are only 6 / 7 years old, like a white sheet of paper, their futures are all in my hands, I am their mentor, their inspiring teacher ... "
May 12, 2008 ... when the ground started shaking, Teacher Yuen shouted: "It's earthquake, run quickly!!" But many of the students were shocked and stunned ... not knowing to fled for life ... She quickly moved, grabing a child and went out of the building ... one ... two ... three ... again and again, going back and forth to save the children one by one ... for a total of 13!! When she put down the 13th child "Wu Kai Fei", she ran quickly again into the classroom .... "BANG!" ... the roof collapsed ... the saved children all cried and shouted: "Teacher Yuen is still inside ... "
An hour later, the crisis recovery team came and found her and 9 children in the debris ... Face down, arms open, over the bodies of the children .... Her time stopped at the age of 26 ...
Other than Teacher Yuen and the 9 children, all the other students from the Grade 1 class were safe!!
Her colleagues and friends wrote a song - "Let me light a candle for you" - to memorialize her. The following except lyrics especially touched me:
Brave is not a simple sentence
Brave is not merely the strength of the warriors
Brave is the most beautiful spark of one's value
...
It's You leave death to yourself
leaving hope for others
...
It's You use your life to tell us
there is a love called eternal
I believe there are many more who worth our praises and memorial for their actions in this disaster of Sichuan. May be a lot more touching stories not yet known, or would never be known ... but they all have a message - to light up others' lives, to give a bit more hope to the world. Their brave decisions aren't what we can deny ... Don't let this decision stop, let us continue ... continue to light up!!
Yuen Man-Ting made brave decisions during the short couple-minutes of earthquake ... What about you and me? What are our decisions for those who are alive? Are we still stuck and troubled by our school, career, family, or health problems? Do we refuse to look at tomorrow for our worries, anxieties, anger, or disappointments? Young people, let us be courageous, not hide behind our comfy homes, not be drowned in our own dreams ... march onwards!! Step forward with everyone! This world needs you and me~~ We are the world!!
"Weeping may last for the night, But a shout of joy comes in the morning." (Psalm 30:5)
This night may be rough and long, but due to the Saviour, due to many companions, we will have the strength to wait till the morning!
"Let no one look down on your youthfulness, but rather in speech, conduct, love, faith and purity, show yourself an example of those who believe." (1Timothy 4:12)
Yuen Man-Ting did not back off due to her youthfulness, her action, love became an example of many ... she's being respected by many~~
Before the end of the concert, the organizer gave us all a challenge ... a challenge to stretch out our arm with the yellow ribbon - to feel how those waiting to be saved under the debris felt as they awaited to be saved ... We did this for a full 10 minutes, but they ... they did it in complete darkness for tens of hours ... This is really nothing in comparison, but let us not forget to feel even by little ... let us not be indifferent due to the flooding of information we get each day. Let us not forget to "weep with those who weep" (Romans 12:15). Just as Reverend said this morning: "And if one member suffers, all the members suffer with it" (1Corinthian 12:26). Let us not only live in our own little world~~
Let's keep reminding each other about it~~
More info about Yuen Man-Ting (but in Chinese): http://baike.baidu.com/view/1600966.html
Listen to "Let me light a candle for you" (Mandarin)
Flash http://xcb.suse.edu.cn/drzg.swf
mp3 http://xcb.suse.edu.cn/让我为你点燃烛光.mp3
Sunday, May 25, 2008
still more thoughts ...
It is depressing and sad to hear news these days: the increasing number of death, the number of missing ... In order to make it less depressing, I think, many news channels put in one or two "touching" stories of those being saved after 48, 72 etc. hours of the earthquake ... Honestly, I have a mixed feeling after hearing them ...
On the one hand, it is exciting and encouraging to know that more people are saved!!! They survived!! It is amazing~~ Yet, I also feel sad and sorry for these people ... for their sufferings, shorter, longer, or even for life ... It's just heartbroken having to learn what kind of suffering they have to endure. It leads me to see how much these people treasure and value their lives that they are determined in seeking survival, LIFE!! How much do I treasure my life? How much do I treasure my various relationships? Would they be significant enough for me to endure much hardships?? What a great big reflection!!
I, at times, wonder if it were to happen in a more developed country or city, would the "survival rate" (# of people saved after say 48 hours or above) be as high? I have an intuitive impression that it would be lower ... cuz having lived in abundance, convenience, and enormous choices .... we seem to forget what suffering is ... It is something we avoid instead of endure~~ We are never trained to endure hardship, we just run away from them, we give up too soon~~~ What are we teaching our next generation? Or are we simply feeding and providing for our next generation without leading them to maturity?? How about myself?? Am I trying to run away and take an easier route to avoid pains and suffering? Or do I really know what I am doing and convicted of my actions and endurance?
Ooops ... think too far ... My prayers are with Sichuan and Burma~ Sichuan and Burma hang in there~~ We are all standing by you ... It's tough, but you can do it~~ No, WE can do it, cuz you are not alone!
On the one hand, it is exciting and encouraging to know that more people are saved!!! They survived!! It is amazing~~ Yet, I also feel sad and sorry for these people ... for their sufferings, shorter, longer, or even for life ... It's just heartbroken having to learn what kind of suffering they have to endure. It leads me to see how much these people treasure and value their lives that they are determined in seeking survival, LIFE!! How much do I treasure my life? How much do I treasure my various relationships? Would they be significant enough for me to endure much hardships?? What a great big reflection!!
I, at times, wonder if it were to happen in a more developed country or city, would the "survival rate" (# of people saved after say 48 hours or above) be as high? I have an intuitive impression that it would be lower ... cuz having lived in abundance, convenience, and enormous choices .... we seem to forget what suffering is ... It is something we avoid instead of endure~~ We are never trained to endure hardship, we just run away from them, we give up too soon~~~ What are we teaching our next generation? Or are we simply feeding and providing for our next generation without leading them to maturity?? How about myself?? Am I trying to run away and take an easier route to avoid pains and suffering? Or do I really know what I am doing and convicted of my actions and endurance?
Ooops ... think too far ... My prayers are with Sichuan and Burma~ Sichuan and Burma hang in there~~ We are all standing by you ... It's tough, but you can do it~~ No, WE can do it, cuz you are not alone!
more thoughts ...
Hm ... a year's past~~ Do I like my birthday?? Honestly, "MY" birthday - I don't know if I really like it much ... I guess if I learn to love myself more, I probably would like it better, feeling more of a celebration .... My problem!! Though I know cerebrally for no matter how I feel, the fact is I'm fearfully and wonderfully made~~ ^.^ (challenge is to learn it from the heart~)
Thank you for all my friends who remember the day and care to send me msg or call wishing me a happy birthday~~ For sure you made the day happier, brighter and better~~ Thank you for those who celebrated my bday and those who even remember to get my favourite cake!!! (It's REALLY a surprise~~ hahaha ... think I gave you yet a bigger surprise for not recognizing it =P ... sooo embarrassing!!! but the thoughtfulness is much much appreciated~~) Thanks for those who somehow inspired me to "trap" myself to blow tea candles as bday candles!!! (still can't get over my stupidity~~ =P but it's lots of FUN~~) Thank you friends and family - without you, my life would be dull and colorless, without you, I would not be me!!
One thing I like about bday is the "excuse" to get together and catch up with old good friends. Nothing is better than catching up with friends, sharing DEEP full of laughters and even tears, and perhaps prayers ... No any present is better than your thoughtfulness, expressing in humor or sincerity, or both, and your presence, physically, audibly or electronically or however creatively. They all touch my heart deeply every year. After all, I really should learn to celebrate birthday, not because of me for I've lived one more year, but the fact that I have someoneS who filled my life with many wonderful deeds, love, laughters, and memories for another year.
Thank you my dear friends and family, each of you are a Great BIG blessing to my life~~~ THANK you!! Thank you Lord, for your fearfully and wonderfully made creations, and having put them in my life~~
Thank you for all my friends who remember the day and care to send me msg or call wishing me a happy birthday~~ For sure you made the day happier, brighter and better~~ Thank you for those who celebrated my bday and those who even remember to get my favourite cake!!! (It's REALLY a surprise~~ hahaha ... think I gave you yet a bigger surprise for not recognizing it =P ... sooo embarrassing!!! but the thoughtfulness is much much appreciated~~) Thanks for those who somehow inspired me to "trap" myself to blow tea candles as bday candles!!! (still can't get over my stupidity~~ =P but it's lots of FUN~~) Thank you friends and family - without you, my life would be dull and colorless, without you, I would not be me!!
One thing I like about bday is the "excuse" to get together and catch up with old good friends. Nothing is better than catching up with friends, sharing DEEP full of laughters and even tears, and perhaps prayers ... No any present is better than your thoughtfulness, expressing in humor or sincerity, or both, and your presence, physically, audibly or electronically or however creatively. They all touch my heart deeply every year. After all, I really should learn to celebrate birthday, not because of me for I've lived one more year, but the fact that I have someoneS who filled my life with many wonderful deeds, love, laughters, and memories for another year.
Thank you my dear friends and family, each of you are a Great BIG blessing to my life~~~ THANK you!! Thank you Lord, for your fearfully and wonderfully made creations, and having put them in my life~~
Monday, March 31, 2008
Learning to pray boldly
I'm a slow learner, always need to take the time for things to sink down both in heart and in mind before I can grab a new idea / concept. Been working on a group project lately re: boldness in prayers ... I guess after a month of hard work, it seems to "sink" a bit for me.
I start to challenge myself more as I pray ... do I really mean it? Do I really believe that God can do that? Don't pray superficial prayers! Because of my assurance in Him, I can pray boldly!! These all go through my mind as I pray. No new lesson, it's probably something I've heard since going to church, yet it is making more and more sense to me, continue to lit me over time ... That I believe is REALITY~~
"Taste and see that the Lord is good ... " (Ps 34:8) - one of my favorite bible verses which I like it more and more over time, for I never fail to see THE goodness as I prompt to taste and see.
I start to challenge myself more as I pray ... do I really mean it? Do I really believe that God can do that? Don't pray superficial prayers! Because of my assurance in Him, I can pray boldly!! These all go through my mind as I pray. No new lesson, it's probably something I've heard since going to church, yet it is making more and more sense to me, continue to lit me over time ... That I believe is REALITY~~
"Taste and see that the Lord is good ... " (Ps 34:8) - one of my favorite bible verses which I like it more and more over time, for I never fail to see THE goodness as I prompt to taste and see.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
受傷 ...
想不到人的心是如此的脆弱, 更想不到的是 ... 自己亦不能幸免. 傷心並不是要眼淚不斷地下滑, 也不一定要呼天搶地 ... 可以是很平靜, 安靜 ... 眾人看不出你的哀傷, 那未便可以自憐, 沈醉在自己的思緒中. 是失望, 是開始有點兒灰心 ... 為何, 為何總是如此?? 不被理解, 反被誤會, 被中傷 ... 年復一年, 每況愈下 ... 連自己也開始懷疑 ... 像是沒有進步, 成熟, 感覺虚空 ... ... 真的怕, 真的怕心已淡了 .... 但會傷心應總不算太冷吧~~ 這份心疼又有誰明, 又有誰願意傾聽? (唯獨祢~~)
這樣的心情讓我想起這首歌 ... (前奏開始...)
燈光也暗了 音樂低聲了
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外陰天了 人是無聊了
我的心開始想你了
*電話響起了 你要說話了
還以為你心裡對我又想念了
怎麼你聲音變得冷淡了
是你變了 是你變了
燈光熄滅了 音樂靜止了
滴下的眼淚已停不住了
天下起雨了 人是不快樂
我的心真的受傷了
我的心真的受傷了
這樣的心情讓我想起這首歌 ... (前奏開始...)
燈光也暗了 音樂低聲了
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外陰天了 人是無聊了
我的心開始想你了
*電話響起了 你要說話了
還以為你心裡對我又想念了
怎麼你聲音變得冷淡了
是你變了 是你變了
燈光熄滅了 音樂靜止了
滴下的眼淚已停不住了
天下起雨了 人是不快樂
我的心真的受傷了
我的心真的受傷了
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Mar 1008 poem
I like poems .. a good way to express feelings, wild ideas and many more ... Haven't written for long that it's getting rusty (though I wonder if it ever being better =P ). Anyway, here's an idea came to mind again that I would like to dedicate to all my dear friends~~
You are an awesome creation
. in the image of Your Master
You have tons of potential
. for being who you are
With the fall of human nation
. creatures are all being defaced
Thanks to His unfailing love
. we are never effaced
For His great mercies and love
. genuine fellowship is made available
In truth, in love, and in wisdom
. we build each other up to the optimal potential
Should I shy away from being pinpointed my weaknesses
. remind me of this fishy poem
Gently and continuously stand by my side
. holding me up and be my companion
Forgive my straight abrasive comments
. there are no harmful intention
Forgoing my gentle reputation
. for a growing brighter star
Treasure your genuine fellowship
. and the walk with me today
Remembering every bit of it
. till the everlasting day
You are an awesome creation
. in the image of Your Master
You have tons of potential
. for being who you are
With the fall of human nation
. creatures are all being defaced
Thanks to His unfailing love
. we are never effaced
For His great mercies and love
. genuine fellowship is made available
In truth, in love, and in wisdom
. we build each other up to the optimal potential
Should I shy away from being pinpointed my weaknesses
. remind me of this fishy poem
Gently and continuously stand by my side
. holding me up and be my companion
Forgive my straight abrasive comments
. there are no harmful intention
Forgoing my gentle reputation
. for a growing brighter star
Treasure your genuine fellowship
. and the walk with me today
Remembering every bit of it
. till the everlasting day
Sunday, February 03, 2008
"誰? 是誰說我固執的?"
"誰? 是誰說我固執的?" - 這是一張金牛座書籤的句語, 相信是來形容我吧! 哈哈~~~ 準確嗎? 見人見智吧!!
是, 我是一個有立場的人 ... 我亦是一個在明確,知道,清楚,自己立場時是會堅持的人 ... 但我又不太覺得自己在任何的事上都只堅持己意 bor ... 當然, 皆因我的理性, 我不能完全不明所以地接受別人的立場, 我是需要你帶我到你的 thought process, 從你的觀點看, 從而讓我明白你的出發點及觀點.
不過, 固執真是很主觀的 ... 因為我可以在某些人面前像是很隨和, 皆因我願意接受,順服及降服; 但在某些人身上可能因為不信任的原因吧, 我不會輕易放下自己的立場 ... 有時, 又因為事件的輕重, 一些對我毫無"痛癢"的事, 我會 be very indifferent. 但一些我執著的事, 我覺得重要的事, 我會好堅持, 因為正確在這些事上對我來說是重要的. 譬如說: 最近有個提倡"一人一laptop" 的 non-profit 機構帶動供給一些第三世界的小朋友多一點有 quality 的教育, 勸籲大家sponsor 這個運動 ... 本人同意高質素的科技有助提供教育, 但我覺得若人只專注提高科技或教育而忘卻在第三世界中仍有很多兒童在生命邊緣掙扎便是不洽當. 我會堅持這是應有優次之分 (priority on sponsorship), 特別是有很多助養兒童的機構已經注入教育的成份 ... 難道人的生命不比更高的科技及教育質素可貴嗎? 我便可以因這個觀點及立場與人辯論數十分鐘也不竭止 ... 哈哈.
但現在深想 ... 我也許是一個固執地不承認自己是一個固執的人 ... 何以見之? 便是由這篇小小文章吧!! 哈哈~~~ 我想我真是鐵一般的金牛座吧~~~ But I always think awareness is the first step to adjustment~~ hahahahaha .... =)
是, 我是一個有立場的人 ... 我亦是一個在明確,知道,清楚,自己立場時是會堅持的人 ... 但我又不太覺得自己在任何的事上都只堅持己意 bor ... 當然, 皆因我的理性, 我不能完全不明所以地接受別人的立場, 我是需要你帶我到你的 thought process, 從你的觀點看, 從而讓我明白你的出發點及觀點.
不過, 固執真是很主觀的 ... 因為我可以在某些人面前像是很隨和, 皆因我願意接受,順服及降服; 但在某些人身上可能因為不信任的原因吧, 我不會輕易放下自己的立場 ... 有時, 又因為事件的輕重, 一些對我毫無"痛癢"的事, 我會 be very indifferent. 但一些我執著的事, 我覺得重要的事, 我會好堅持, 因為正確在這些事上對我來說是重要的. 譬如說: 最近有個提倡"一人一laptop" 的 non-profit 機構帶動供給一些第三世界的小朋友多一點有 quality 的教育, 勸籲大家sponsor 這個運動 ... 本人同意高質素的科技有助提供教育, 但我覺得若人只專注提高科技或教育而忘卻在第三世界中仍有很多兒童在生命邊緣掙扎便是不洽當. 我會堅持這是應有優次之分 (priority on sponsorship), 特別是有很多助養兒童的機構已經注入教育的成份 ... 難道人的生命不比更高的科技及教育質素可貴嗎? 我便可以因這個觀點及立場與人辯論數十分鐘也不竭止 ... 哈哈.
但現在深想 ... 我也許是一個固執地不承認自己是一個固執的人 ... 何以見之? 便是由這篇小小文章吧!! 哈哈~~~ 我想我真是鐵一般的金牛座吧~~~ But I always think awareness is the first step to adjustment~~ hahahahaha .... =)
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
"Overcomer" ©
Saw a passage today, it is really meaningful that I wanna share.
"Overcomer"©
"Lord, You know i'm pushing on
to run this race
i fix my eyes on You
in everything i face
even when my feelings say it isn't so
Your Truth that beats
inside my heart won't let me go
with every step of faith,
You strengthen me
along every mile of trust,
You're remaking me
'tho a trail of tears
mark the path that i've come
until in Your arms...
i'll continue to run
(Heb 12:1-22, 2 Cor 4: 8-9)"
www.remembermejewelry.com/symbols.html, Jan 8, 08
Yes, we are all running a race, but whose strength are we relying on to run this race? Our inborn physical strength, our intelligence, our endurance or our will? As this passage, we need to realize we are not running this race on our own, but with our God. We need to learn not to run in our own strength, but rely on Him who strengthens us to finish this race; no matter short or long. No matter where you are in the race, it is never too late to pick up and continue to run your race with Him, with His strength.
Realizing His presence and He's running the race with us is not the toughest to learn, but to rely on Him and not ourselves. At times, I thought I learned how to rely, yet I start to realize more and more that I am inadequate in it. I'm still using my own strength to protect myself from hurt, I'm often using my talent and skills to "secure" my life/path/goal. But it's never too late to learn and to continue learning. I'm sure He's sooo pleased whenever God sees us walking back onto the right path, standing up from where we fell and continue to move forward in our journey - and He'll put on a BIG smile when looking at us.
Also, the phrase "i fix my eyes on You in everything i face even when my feelings say it isn't so" caught and touched me most. Yes, we need to trust Him and His Word for He's faithful, and not merely our feelings. I sometimes wonder if I can trust unconditionally all the time ... It's tough, but I believe and trust that it is not undoable.
"Overcomer"©
"Lord, You know i'm pushing on
to run this race
i fix my eyes on You
in everything i face
even when my feelings say it isn't so
Your Truth that beats
inside my heart won't let me go
with every step of faith,
You strengthen me
along every mile of trust,
You're remaking me
'tho a trail of tears
mark the path that i've come
until in Your arms...
i'll continue to run
(Heb 12:1-22, 2 Cor 4: 8-9)"
www.remembermejewelry.com/symbols.html, Jan 8, 08
Yes, we are all running a race, but whose strength are we relying on to run this race? Our inborn physical strength, our intelligence, our endurance or our will? As this passage, we need to realize we are not running this race on our own, but with our God. We need to learn not to run in our own strength, but rely on Him who strengthens us to finish this race; no matter short or long. No matter where you are in the race, it is never too late to pick up and continue to run your race with Him, with His strength.
Realizing His presence and He's running the race with us is not the toughest to learn, but to rely on Him and not ourselves. At times, I thought I learned how to rely, yet I start to realize more and more that I am inadequate in it. I'm still using my own strength to protect myself from hurt, I'm often using my talent and skills to "secure" my life/path/goal. But it's never too late to learn and to continue learning. I'm sure He's sooo pleased whenever God sees us walking back onto the right path, standing up from where we fell and continue to move forward in our journey - and He'll put on a BIG smile when looking at us.
Also, the phrase "i fix my eyes on You in everything i face even when my feelings say it isn't so" caught and touched me most. Yes, we need to trust Him and His Word for He's faithful, and not merely our feelings. I sometimes wonder if I can trust unconditionally all the time ... It's tough, but I believe and trust that it is not undoable.
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
苦不堪言
因為上一次的革命尚未成功, 最近又再次進入與H. Pylori(XX"羅旋菌)的戰鬥中. 唉! 不知怎的便是和它紏纏不清, 真是廢解!! 昂貴的藥物已經令錢包叫苦連天, 但最苦都係這個一星期的療程, 每天要定時吃數粒的大大藥丸. 療程都未到一半, 我的口腔已經苦不堪言, 不知天下間有什麼食物或飲品可以化解.
這個世界看事物永遠都有兩面, 今次的另一面便是叫我這個對藥物反感度極高的人, 終於學懂吞吃藥丸 ... 哈哈哈!!
不過真是好苦 ... 但苦口良藥, 都要堅持 ... 希望今次的 84% 成功率兌現吧!
這個世界看事物永遠都有兩面, 今次的另一面便是叫我這個對藥物反感度極高的人, 終於學懂吞吃藥丸 ... 哈哈哈!!
不過真是好苦 ... 但苦口良藥, 都要堅持 ... 希望今次的 84% 成功率兌現吧!
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