Thanksgiving ...

After some discussions on Thur. I medidated (i.e. focus thinking) on the topic thanksgiving on Saturaday night. A very clear and vivid picture suddenly hit me. It is not necessary a new one, but the impact was big enough for me to remember vividly up to now ...

It is the picture of gifting ...

I don't know if you had similar experience, I do ... sometimes I prepared a gift for someone. For whatever reason, the person keep rejecting to take the gifts with different excuses and even changing contact information so that you cannot reach him / her easily. You might keep the gift for one year .. may be two .. but probably you'll give up after a few years and end up sending the gift to someone else or use it yourself instead of keeping it for the person forever ... At least that's what I'd do ...

During this thanksgiving, I would like to thank the One who kept a gift for me for over 20 years ... and never forget to try to ask me to receive the gift ...

My Lord is amazing that He prepared the gift for me even before I was born. After I were born, He tried many different ways to try to deliver the gift to me, yet I rejected it, excusing that I don't need it until later, and even hid away from Him ... He's patient and never gave up .. that at last I accepted it 20+ years later.

What I found most touching is that .. the gift is the same as what He had originally planned, not discounted or changed by any means because of my rejections etc ...

I really really treasure the gift cuz it is a personal gift for ME, and it is a gift full of love. The gift itself and also spoken through the delivery process ... I'm really thankful that I accepted it ... It's quite disturbing thinking WHAT IF the gift was pull away due to my years and years of rejection and neglection ... It is however make it more valuable that I finally received it ... Can't imagine what a Big LOSS it would be to me if I keep on rejecting, hiding, rejecting ...

Thank you God for the greatest and most precious gift!!