今天的信息中, 牧者很有心的預備, 引用 "奪寶奇兵" 內的三個挑戰 - 謙卑, 清楚神的話/名, 信心的跳躍 ... 來 illustrate 信息..
初看時最觸動的是信心, 其實在近年中, 發覺當自己戰驚地踏上一步時﹐便真的如戲中般能看清及看到神的已預備的道, 有時可能是整條的道﹐有時可能只有一少部份 ... 但就是因這些看見﹐讓我的信心再進一步的躍進, 進而看得更多更深。 所以現在很多時都會開始踏出 comfort zone ... 因為不想因自己暫時的看不見而失卻了機會 ...
可惜, 最近好像要加把勁 ... 於某些事情上, 自己全沒有勇氣踏前又或是看見任何的道可行 ... 當我再進深的思想, 其實是否自己未曾謙卑? 未曾讓神工作? ... 未曾好好的聆聽神的話? ... 以至未能擺上這信心 ... (唔 ... 這樣看來, 這三樣實是不能分隔的 ...)
不論要行的怎樣, praying that I can have reverent submission before God, the Lord ... 行出要行出的, 教我能再進深的經歷神的豐富。
Monday, April 24, 2006
Friday, April 21, 2006
Sunday, April 16, 2006
受苦節崇拜
合唱團其實一直是自己很渴望能夠參與的, 但因時間問題自己不能 commit 所以便"打消"此念頭很久。 雖然植堂後也有多次的"詩班" 獻唱﹐但每次都是比較短及"淺"。 今次的受苦節崇拜算是最大"規模" -- 除了崇拜後的十數分鐘的練習﹐我們總共"加班"三次﹐ 每次個多兩個鐘 ... 但要練習的合共有八首之多﹐且大部份都要分部唱 ...
當晚出來的效果十分之好﹐是比大家所想所求的為皆。 各樣的配撘都十分好。 在最後 rehersal 後﹐很多詩班員都受詩歌的感動。 自己在當晚在中途 唱到"甘背十架"和"古舊十架" 時都感動非常, 因一連串的詩歌﹐彷彿帶我到耶穌被賣的那夜, 被釘 ... 但他仍說他為愛我的源故, 甘背這十架 ... 而台下的弟兄姊妹同心的回應"古舊十架" 實是很美的一幅圖畫 ... 很enjoy 及感榮幸自己是一份子 ...
感謝神讓我們有好的指揮, 盡心的指導及精心編排的詩歌 ... 感謝神讓我們有這麼用心團結的弟兄姊妹為當晚的崇拜盡心盡力 ... 最感謝神讓這一切變得完美﹐超過我們所想及所求﹐讓祂自己的名被尊崇﹐被高舉 ...
感謝神讓我有此教會﹐在當中去認識及經歷祂的真實﹐慈愛及大能! Thanks for letting me dance with You~~
當晚出來的效果十分之好﹐是比大家所想所求的為皆。 各樣的配撘都十分好。 在最後 rehersal 後﹐很多詩班員都受詩歌的感動。 自己在當晚在中途 唱到"甘背十架"和"古舊十架" 時都感動非常, 因一連串的詩歌﹐彷彿帶我到耶穌被賣的那夜, 被釘 ... 但他仍說他為愛我的源故, 甘背這十架 ... 而台下的弟兄姊妹同心的回應"古舊十架" 實是很美的一幅圖畫 ... 很enjoy 及感榮幸自己是一份子 ...
感謝神讓我們有好的指揮, 盡心的指導及精心編排的詩歌 ... 感謝神讓我們有這麼用心團結的弟兄姊妹為當晚的崇拜盡心盡力 ... 最感謝神讓這一切變得完美﹐超過我們所想及所求﹐讓祂自己的名被尊崇﹐被高舉 ...
感謝神讓我有此教會﹐在當中去認識及經歷祂的真實﹐慈愛及大能! Thanks for letting me dance with You~~
繼續失魂
繼上次分享的超級失魂記後, 又一“力作”。
今天崇拜後有一位英文堂弟兄告訴我﹐ 我車子的左後輪有點"flat"﹐提醒我要給它pump pump 氣。 這時我才記起好像兩個多星期前 (又或已是更久之事)﹐ 有位弟兄已經提醒過我 ... 哈哈﹐ 但明顯地﹐我又忘卻了。 最近雖每天都駕車返工﹐但始終也沒有留意到或記起﹐ 為免再次忘記﹐我今次一到酒樓見到家人便跟他們說﹐(嘩﹗太醒目喇~~) 午飯後我要到油站pump 氣 .. 終於我成功地好好pump 返條呔!
唔 .. 今次結論係 ... 駕一輪不太普遍的車子係好的﹐那末便方便人家通知車主~~~ =P
Friday, March 24, 2006
March 24
Got a long day ahead, so just a short note ... T
he day didn't start too well .. haha .. not surprising after 3.5 hr of sleep.
Anyway .. long story short .. some things came up that kinda got me upset .. but then suddenly this came to mind: "Love is in me to give~~" Then I feel better .. though still tired.
he day didn't start too well .. haha .. not surprising after 3.5 hr of sleep.
Anyway .. long story short .. some things came up that kinda got me upset .. but then suddenly this came to mind: "Love is in me to give~~" Then I feel better .. though still tired.
Sunday, March 12, 2006
Happy Day
Sharing other people's happiness sometimes make me feel even happier. I am happy today, cuz it's my mom's bday and dad bought her nice flowers .. so nice & sweet~~
Of cuz being a nosy me, I made the bundle look even "prettier" by arranging them in the vase using my "random art taste." ... hahhaha
Happy Birthday, Mom!!
Friday, February 10, 2006
失魂魚
今天當了一個超級失魂魚 ...
失魂魚事一: 今日因下班後要接一位姊妹去練歌 ... 那姊妹家在 Yonge & Finch ... 我plan 左的 route 便是take Don Valley 然後 401 W, exit Yonge go North ... 駕著駕著, 當我exit highway 時, 便call 姊妹告訴她我五分鐘後到 ... 但一路感覺為何央街寧靜了那麼多... 再留心點, 才發覺我早咗一個exit 出 .. 這是Bayview, 不是Yonge!!! Da!!
失魂魚事二﹕練習完後, 送姊妹返家 ... 本該從Bayview 直行到Finch ... 但我於Steeles 便轉右去了 ...
唉~~ 真怕會把那姊妹嚇怕 ... 但我平日的方向感真的沒有那麼差~~ 可惜還未夠還有 ...
失魂魚事三: 話說油價下滑 ... 跌到77.2 ... 自己的車已“滿油”沒有入 ... 但家裡部 Corolla 有半"江" ... 因爸爸有張二十元代用劵﹐ 所以便叫我也注滿小油桶 ... 雖然天氣十分極之寒冷, 但一切順利 ... 回到家把車泊好, 便把車房門關上 ... 哎呀!! 油桶仍在車尾箱內 ... 雖然油站與家不到兩分鐘車程, 但我已把它忘得一乾二淨 ... 若不是媽媽提我, 弟弟便可能要車著油桶上教會去!!!
要記的, 便忘得乾淨 ... 想忘記的, 又偏偏重覆於腦內~~~ 可笑不可笑??
失魂魚事一: 今日因下班後要接一位姊妹去練歌 ... 那姊妹家在 Yonge & Finch ... 我plan 左的 route 便是take Don Valley 然後 401 W, exit Yonge go North ... 駕著駕著, 當我exit highway 時, 便call 姊妹告訴她我五分鐘後到 ... 但一路感覺為何央街寧靜了那麼多... 再留心點, 才發覺我早咗一個exit 出 .. 這是Bayview, 不是Yonge!!! Da!!
失魂魚事二﹕練習完後, 送姊妹返家 ... 本該從Bayview 直行到Finch ... 但我於Steeles 便轉右去了 ...
唉~~ 真怕會把那姊妹嚇怕 ... 但我平日的方向感真的沒有那麼差~~ 可惜還未夠還有 ...
失魂魚事三: 話說油價下滑 ... 跌到77.2 ... 自己的車已“滿油”沒有入 ... 但家裡部 Corolla 有半"江" ... 因爸爸有張二十元代用劵﹐ 所以便叫我也注滿小油桶 ... 雖然天氣十分極之寒冷, 但一切順利 ... 回到家把車泊好, 便把車房門關上 ... 哎呀!! 油桶仍在車尾箱內 ... 雖然油站與家不到兩分鐘車程, 但我已把它忘得一乾二淨 ... 若不是媽媽提我, 弟弟便可能要車著油桶上教會去!!!
要記的, 便忘得乾淨 ... 想忘記的, 又偏偏重覆於腦內~~~ 可笑不可笑??
Saturday, January 28, 2006
Cool ...
How often do you follow your inner voice? I've been trying in the recent past, but today I failed ...
Haven't been on the 5:30pm go-train for the longest time .. when I hopped on it .. it was full of ppl, I had to walk a few carts before finding a seat.
After I settled down, I started my go-train reading while the guy sitting next to me were sleeping. About half way through my ride, the guy woke up and started coughing ... I think he was irritated by his thoat, he brought out his bottle of water and drank some. Then keep clearing his thoat every once in awhile. At first, I just kept reading ... but suddenly a thought came to mind: "Oh! I have some "Fisherman's Friend" on me, may be that would lessen his 'irritation' ... " ...
I started searching in my purse .. for no reason (my purse is not that big), it took me like a minute before I found it .. but when I found it .. I hesitated: "Hm ... would I scare him? May be he'd find me weird and so '8 gwa' ... He seemed to be getting better now ... It is really odd to offer a stranger 'food' ... He might be sceptical ... ..." Thousands of excuses and questions popped up at the same time. However, I can feel my heart deep down to want to help and lessen his suffering ... I asked myself ... What Would Jesus Do? ... For sure, Jesus would walk up to him and offer him help! ...
The train captain announced the upcoming station, it is the station I get off at ... but I still have time .. at least 2 to 3 min. I hesitated and struggled ... the pack of "Fisherman's Friend" was just sitting right at the edge of my purse ... I could easily grap it and hand it over ... But at last, I chose to stand up and walk down the stairs waiting to get off ...
*Sigh* ... feel bad ... where was my passion? Why was I still so timid after all these years~~ The most remarkable thing is .... Found it really irony ... I kept commenting today's world is too cool, yet I myself chose to walk away instead of giving a helping hand.
Haven't been on the 5:30pm go-train for the longest time .. when I hopped on it .. it was full of ppl, I had to walk a few carts before finding a seat.
After I settled down, I started my go-train reading while the guy sitting next to me were sleeping. About half way through my ride, the guy woke up and started coughing ... I think he was irritated by his thoat, he brought out his bottle of water and drank some. Then keep clearing his thoat every once in awhile. At first, I just kept reading ... but suddenly a thought came to mind: "Oh! I have some "Fisherman's Friend" on me, may be that would lessen his 'irritation' ... " ...
I started searching in my purse .. for no reason (my purse is not that big), it took me like a minute before I found it .. but when I found it .. I hesitated: "Hm ... would I scare him? May be he'd find me weird and so '8 gwa' ... He seemed to be getting better now ... It is really odd to offer a stranger 'food' ... He might be sceptical ... ..." Thousands of excuses and questions popped up at the same time. However, I can feel my heart deep down to want to help and lessen his suffering ... I asked myself ... What Would Jesus Do? ... For sure, Jesus would walk up to him and offer him help! ...
The train captain announced the upcoming station, it is the station I get off at ... but I still have time .. at least 2 to 3 min. I hesitated and struggled ... the pack of "Fisherman's Friend" was just sitting right at the edge of my purse ... I could easily grap it and hand it over ... But at last, I chose to stand up and walk down the stairs waiting to get off ...
*Sigh* ... feel bad ... where was my passion? Why was I still so timid after all these years~~ The most remarkable thing is .... Found it really irony ... I kept commenting today's world is too cool, yet I myself chose to walk away instead of giving a helping hand.
Saturday, January 21, 2006
我的神是又真又活的!!!
心情懷透, 正盡情用文字發洩情緒, 模糊中聽到唱機正在播放一首的詩歌, 當中的詞觸動著我 ...
"凡勞苦重擔 當親近耶穌
必享安息 必得滿足
凡飢渴慕義 來尋求耶穌
必享甘泉 必得飽足
注目看耶穌 定睛看耶穌
聖潔公義主 十架上耶穌
注目看耶穌 定睛看耶穌
謙卑親近主 跟著祂同步 跟著祂同步"
突然心情平靜 ... 找到我的答案 - 要注目定眼看耶穌 ... 但神實在比誰更明白自己 ... 接著的一首歌, 緊緊的繫在我心
"我的心 你要稱頌耶和華
不可忘記祂的恩惠
祂赦免你一切過犯罪孽
醫治你疾病復原
我的心 你要稱頌耶和華
不可忘記祂的恩惠
祂以仁愛慈悲為你冠冕
為受屈的人伸冤
天離地有何等的高
祂的慈愛也何等的深
東離西有多麼的遠
祂使我的過犯也離我多遠
耶和華有憐憫的愛
且有豐盛無盡的恩典
從亙古直到永遠
耶和華祂是我的神"
心感神的大愛, 同在, 祂最是明白我, 永遠在我最感孤寂無助時在我身邊拖帶我走 ... 然後淚水隨著樂曲落下, 數算神的恩典 ... 神的應許, 祂的話語是我的力量! 永不改變, 也是不能改。
"凡勞苦重擔 當親近耶穌
必享安息 必得滿足
凡飢渴慕義 來尋求耶穌
必享甘泉 必得飽足
注目看耶穌 定睛看耶穌
聖潔公義主 十架上耶穌
注目看耶穌 定睛看耶穌
謙卑親近主 跟著祂同步 跟著祂同步"
突然心情平靜 ... 找到我的答案 - 要注目定眼看耶穌 ... 但神實在比誰更明白自己 ... 接著的一首歌, 緊緊的繫在我心
"我的心 你要稱頌耶和華
不可忘記祂的恩惠
祂赦免你一切過犯罪孽
醫治你疾病復原
我的心 你要稱頌耶和華
不可忘記祂的恩惠
祂以仁愛慈悲為你冠冕
為受屈的人伸冤
天離地有何等的高
祂的慈愛也何等的深
東離西有多麼的遠
祂使我的過犯也離我多遠
耶和華有憐憫的愛
且有豐盛無盡的恩典
從亙古直到永遠
耶和華祂是我的神"
心感神的大愛, 同在, 祂最是明白我, 永遠在我最感孤寂無助時在我身邊拖帶我走 ... 然後淚水隨著樂曲落下, 數算神的恩典 ... 神的應許, 祂的話語是我的力量! 永不改變, 也是不能改。
Friday, January 20, 2006
Don't waste MY life
"Don't waste your life" - 一個十分catchy 的標題, 叫我無法不去把它取下閱讀 ... 最近越看這書給我更大的insight ... 叫我的腦袋又不停的轉動 ... 讓我和你分享一些內容吧﹗
(Jesus Christ) himself is what we need. If we only trust Christ to give us gifts and not himself as the all-satisfying gift, then we do not trust him in a way that honors him as our treasure. We simply honor the gifts. (Piper, p.70)
.. the greatest joy in God comes from giving his gifts away, not in hoarding them for ourselves ... God's glory shines more brightly when he satisfies us in times of loss than when he provides for us in times of plenty. (Piper, p.72)
Christ aims to be magnified in life most clearly by the way we experience him in our losses. ... When everything in life is stripped away except God, and we trust him more because of it, this is gain, and he is glorified. (Piper, p.73)
[2 Co 4:16-17] "Momentary" refers to a lifetime in comparison with eternity. "Slight" refers to suffering and death compared to the weight of everlasting joy in the presence of God. This is what we gain if hold fast to Christ. This is what we waste if we don't. (Piper, p. 73)
We cannot avoid risk even if we want to. Ignorance and uncertainty about tomorrow is our native air. (Piper, p.81)
... it is right to risk for the cause of Christ, and not is to waste your life. (Piper, p.81)
(Jesus Christ) himself is what we need. If we only trust Christ to give us gifts and not himself as the all-satisfying gift, then we do not trust him in a way that honors him as our treasure. We simply honor the gifts. (Piper, p.70)
.. the greatest joy in God comes from giving his gifts away, not in hoarding them for ourselves ... God's glory shines more brightly when he satisfies us in times of loss than when he provides for us in times of plenty. (Piper, p.72)
Christ aims to be magnified in life most clearly by the way we experience him in our losses. ... When everything in life is stripped away except God, and we trust him more because of it, this is gain, and he is glorified. (Piper, p.73)
[2 Co 4:16-17] "Momentary" refers to a lifetime in comparison with eternity. "Slight" refers to suffering and death compared to the weight of everlasting joy in the presence of God. This is what we gain if hold fast to Christ. This is what we waste if we don't. (Piper, p. 73)
We cannot avoid risk even if we want to. Ignorance and uncertainty about tomorrow is our native air. (Piper, p.81)
... it is right to risk for the cause of Christ, and not is to waste your life. (Piper, p.81)
Monday, January 16, 2006
Busy season stress already started
昨天晚上睡得很是不好 ... 當黃昏與家人到商場逛時 (其實total 只逛了less than an hour)﹐實在太倦 ... 結果不到半句鐘, 我便要到 food court 坐下及小睡片刻才可支持到飯局 ... 真是從未如此這般 ...
話說昨天(Sat)﹐ 因為早上有appointment, 黃昏又有相約了數位姊妹及朋友到一個基督徒聚會﹐ 便決定不回公司﹐只work from home for a bit, 所以還有未完成的工作﹐便決定星期一提早到公司finish the work ... 昨晚在半夜時不斷的"扎"醒 ... wonder 為何﹔鬧鐘遲遲未響 ... 終於忍耐不住看看桌上的鐘 ... "嘩﹗乜快七時多﹐那我如何能早回公司完成工作?" .. 整個人便醒了﹐ 責怪自己為何會教錯鬧鐘!! 當靜心再想想﹐ NO!! 今天是星期天呀!! 但可惜已再不能好好入睡 ... 哎 ... 當發覺原來自己已習慣一個星期只有一天不用上班時, 便感嘆busy season stress 的威力!! 真的很是不健康!!!!
話說昨天(Sat)﹐ 因為早上有appointment, 黃昏又有相約了數位姊妹及朋友到一個基督徒聚會﹐ 便決定不回公司﹐只work from home for a bit, 所以還有未完成的工作﹐便決定星期一提早到公司finish the work ... 昨晚在半夜時不斷的"扎"醒 ... wonder 為何﹔鬧鐘遲遲未響 ... 終於忍耐不住看看桌上的鐘 ... "嘩﹗乜快七時多﹐那我如何能早回公司完成工作?" .. 整個人便醒了﹐ 責怪自己為何會教錯鬧鐘!! 當靜心再想想﹐ NO!! 今天是星期天呀!! 但可惜已再不能好好入睡 ... 哎 ... 當發覺原來自己已習慣一個星期只有一天不用上班時, 便感嘆busy season stress 的威力!! 真的很是不健康!!!!
Thursday, January 12, 2006
False hope
昨晚又收到一個不愉快的消息 ... 想不到在短短的五個星期中﹐有四位自己直接或間接相識的親友相繼離世 ... 加上上星期美國礦場的悲劇﹐ 令腦袋近日不停的轉﹐ 沒有好好的休息。 死亡突然好像十分的接近。 沒有驚恐﹐但有強烈惋惜的感覺 ...
人的生命真的很脆弱。 更是未能預料 ... 看著聽著一個個的生命離開世界﹐很是令人痛心。 工作最近頗忙﹐ 所以沒有太留意新聞。 當週未和家人茗茶時﹐ 才從母親口中得知礦場這悲劇的發生。 聽著聽著﹐不知怎的淚水已在眼珠內不斷的滾動。 當中的感覺是復雜的 ... 一方面感動人間有情﹔ 另一方面替死者的家屬痛悲 - 特別當得知因消息錯誤而帶給他們短暫的 false hope (假的盼望) 時更甚。 那種由天空跌至深淵的心情是極之難受的 ... 但當中更 trigger 自己去想的事是聽到死難者的遺書 ... 當中他們流露了他們對家人的愛﹐ 盼望他日在天堂相見﹐重逢 ... ... (其實真的覺得自己這樣想很是殘忍 ... 但又無法制止不去想 ... ) 當聽到他們遺書的內容自己第一個反應是﹕ 他們是否真有上天堂的把握及確據呢﹖ 不是懷疑﹐ 乃是真的希望他們有正確據﹐ 而不是 false hope, 不是人云亦云的覺得人死後便能到天堂去 ... 到現在我仍覺得自己有這樣的想法很是殘忍﹐ 但卻是揮之不去。
在記憶中﹐每隔一段時間便會有較大型的 poll 問大家覺得自己死後會否到天堂 (at least in the US, I think) ... 每次result 都是大比數覺得自己死後會及能夠。 但教會仍不被重視﹐ 道德觀不斷滑落﹐普遍的價值觀被撓曲 ... 如果每個人都帶著一個 false hope (假的盼望) 活著﹐ 那是多麼悲哀的事!! 當那天真相大白時﹐ 那是多麼悲痛的事 ... 礦場死難者的家屬所有的false hope 只是短暫﹐ 但我們仍可感受及想像他們內心所經歷的悲哀。 假若那 false hope 是一生的﹐那傷害真是令我不敢想像 ...
人的生命真的很脆弱。 更是未能預料 ... 看著聽著一個個的生命離開世界﹐很是令人痛心。 工作最近頗忙﹐ 所以沒有太留意新聞。 當週未和家人茗茶時﹐ 才從母親口中得知礦場這悲劇的發生。 聽著聽著﹐不知怎的淚水已在眼珠內不斷的滾動。 當中的感覺是復雜的 ... 一方面感動人間有情﹔ 另一方面替死者的家屬痛悲 - 特別當得知因消息錯誤而帶給他們短暫的 false hope (假的盼望) 時更甚。 那種由天空跌至深淵的心情是極之難受的 ... 但當中更 trigger 自己去想的事是聽到死難者的遺書 ... 當中他們流露了他們對家人的愛﹐ 盼望他日在天堂相見﹐重逢 ... ... (其實真的覺得自己這樣想很是殘忍 ... 但又無法制止不去想 ... ) 當聽到他們遺書的內容自己第一個反應是﹕ 他們是否真有上天堂的把握及確據呢﹖ 不是懷疑﹐ 乃是真的希望他們有正確據﹐ 而不是 false hope, 不是人云亦云的覺得人死後便能到天堂去 ... 到現在我仍覺得自己有這樣的想法很是殘忍﹐ 但卻是揮之不去。
在記憶中﹐每隔一段時間便會有較大型的 poll 問大家覺得自己死後會否到天堂 (at least in the US, I think) ... 每次result 都是大比數覺得自己死後會及能夠。 但教會仍不被重視﹐ 道德觀不斷滑落﹐普遍的價值觀被撓曲 ... 如果每個人都帶著一個 false hope (假的盼望) 活著﹐ 那是多麼悲哀的事!! 當那天真相大白時﹐ 那是多麼悲痛的事 ... 礦場死難者的家屬所有的false hope 只是短暫﹐ 但我們仍可感受及想像他們內心所經歷的悲哀。 假若那 false hope 是一生的﹐那傷害真是令我不敢想像 ...
Thursday, December 22, 2005
... ...
踏出 funeral 的心情和腳步都是沈重的 ... 在短短的兩星期內, 參加了兩個的喪禮, 一位老太太及一對年輕的夫婦 ... 雖然和離世的人不太熟諗/ 認識 ... 但仍能感受到那種傷痛. 特別在他們至愛的家人眼中及面上流露出來...
一部份的感受是來至那些我相熟, 我認識的朋友的傷痛 ... 不知何時開始, 我變得 more sensitive ... 我好像開始能感受一些別人正在經歷的感受般 ... 這些讓我和人的距離拉近了 ... 另一部份是直接的 ... 我為他們的靈魂"擔憂" (if that's the right word), 特別是一些未認識神的朋友 ... ... 我會衷心為他們的靈魂禱告, 雖然不知神的決定是什麼, 但我相信祂的決定, 因為祂是公義, 仁慈又有憐憫的神 ..
一部份的感受是來至那些我相熟, 我認識的朋友的傷痛 ... 不知何時開始, 我變得 more sensitive ... 我好像開始能感受一些別人正在經歷的感受般 ... 這些讓我和人的距離拉近了 ... 另一部份是直接的 ... 我為他們的靈魂"擔憂" (if that's the right word), 特別是一些未認識神的朋友 ... ... 我會衷心為他們的靈魂禱告, 雖然不知神的決定是什麼, 但我相信祂的決定, 因為祂是公義, 仁慈又有憐憫的神 ..
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
bad news
Heard some bad news over the weekend, a siter-in-law and a brother-in-law of one of my good friends were killed in a car accident last Friday ... I met them when planning and helping out in my friend's wedding this summer ...
I don't know them well .. but it is still sad to learn about it ... don't even know the words to comfort my friend ...
Though there seem to be a lot of controllable, there are yet more uncontrollable in life. Treasure every moment and every person you encounter in life~~ Live it to its fullness!!
I don't know them well .. but it is still sad to learn about it ... don't even know the words to comfort my friend ...
Though there seem to be a lot of controllable, there are yet more uncontrollable in life. Treasure every moment and every person you encounter in life~~ Live it to its fullness!!
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Belated "instant response"
"... as long as God knew where I was, He could cause anybody in the world to know where I was. As long as He knew my need, He could place that need on the heart of anybody He chose." (Blackaby, p.9)
This once was my favourite quote (don't get me wrong, it still is!) attached to all my outgoing emails ... the lines are still highlighted, the page flagged, but the words have slipped out of my mind for long ... for as long as may be 3 years ... How forgetful humans are!!
Although I always praised Lord for His good timing throughout these years, I think my faith is not as strong. Over years I become more skeptical ... I wanted more and more proofs and/or collaboration before I have the faith to say: Yes, Lord! I know it is from you ...
You made me for a purpose ... You put me in certain situations for a purpose ... You put different people around me at different times for a purpose ... Not only for the purpose so that I can serve You through these people, but for the purpose that You can move me into Your agenda through these people and/or situations.
Hm ... a verse came to mine: "Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love." (Rev 2:4) ... But it is not so much about love, but faith. Then it comes my favourite verse: "Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life." (Pr 4:23)
Yes, we always need to be consciously on guard, and keep reminding ourselves and each other ... cuz we are forgetful, and cuz the world is too "influential" yet it is twisted. Praying that I can be more sensitive and have the spiritual senses to "taste" the things happen around me, and really be able to better understand His agenda for me!!
-- my belated "instant reflection". =)
~~ special thanks to my dear mentor for the great reminder!!
This once was my favourite quote (don't get me wrong, it still is!) attached to all my outgoing emails ... the lines are still highlighted, the page flagged, but the words have slipped out of my mind for long ... for as long as may be 3 years ... How forgetful humans are!!
Although I always praised Lord for His good timing throughout these years, I think my faith is not as strong. Over years I become more skeptical ... I wanted more and more proofs and/or collaboration before I have the faith to say: Yes, Lord! I know it is from you ...
You made me for a purpose ... You put me in certain situations for a purpose ... You put different people around me at different times for a purpose ... Not only for the purpose so that I can serve You through these people, but for the purpose that You can move me into Your agenda through these people and/or situations.
Hm ... a verse came to mine: "Yet I hold this against you: You have forsaken your first love." (Rev 2:4) ... But it is not so much about love, but faith. Then it comes my favourite verse: "Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life." (Pr 4:23)
Yes, we always need to be consciously on guard, and keep reminding ourselves and each other ... cuz we are forgetful, and cuz the world is too "influential" yet it is twisted. Praying that I can be more sensitive and have the spiritual senses to "taste" the things happen around me, and really be able to better understand His agenda for me!!
-- my belated "instant reflection". =)
~~ special thanks to my dear mentor for the great reminder!!
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
God's agenda
星期六傍晚時份, 教會有異象分享會 ... 原本我不能出席, 因為父母回航的班機預期在相約時間到達 ... 當然有點失望. 怎料, 星期五晚上, 媽媽打電話說班機會延遲起飛, 吩咐我們記緊先check schedule 才到機場. 當星期六check schedule 時, 班機足足延遲了兩個多小時才起飛! 那未我便能出席異象分享會. 真是一個神蹟~~
當日因有幾個appointment / commitment, 又因自己躲懶遲遲不願起牀, 早上便沒有安靜的時間靈修 ... 但在分享會中, 神藉牧者的一句說話給自己很大的提醒及反思 ... 他說: 作一個屬靈領袖, 應作的便是領人入神的計劃 (move people into God's agenda) ... 已記不起我在那裡看過或聽過這句說話 ... 第一次聽到時便十分認同, 可是久而久之便又把它拋諸腦後 ... 每每又把焦點放在自己 -- 自己所想或所應為對的 ... 對某些弟兄姊妹的"期望"已不是measure 他們是否進入神的計劃, 乃是我的標準 ...
盡管我時常提醒自己不要論斷別人 ... 不在未親身經歷或探討事實真相前莽下定斷 ... 自己其實在不知不覺間於某程度上已對某些肢體下定斷 ... 想到神在以賽亞書中declares: "for my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways." (Isaiah 55:8) 感覺羞愧 ...
我願我能更明白神的心意, 走在祂的計劃之中 ... 更願 ... 知道這個會是一個很大的挑戰, 但我真的希望能幫助神放在我身邊的家人, 朋友, 弟兄姊妹等 ... 幫助他們進入神的計劃 ... only and only God's plan!! 共勉之~~
當日因有幾個appointment / commitment, 又因自己躲懶遲遲不願起牀, 早上便沒有安靜的時間靈修 ... 但在分享會中, 神藉牧者的一句說話給自己很大的提醒及反思 ... 他說: 作一個屬靈領袖, 應作的便是領人入神的計劃 (move people into God's agenda) ... 已記不起我在那裡看過或聽過這句說話 ... 第一次聽到時便十分認同, 可是久而久之便又把它拋諸腦後 ... 每每又把焦點放在自己 -- 自己所想或所應為對的 ... 對某些弟兄姊妹的"期望"已不是measure 他們是否進入神的計劃, 乃是我的標準 ...
盡管我時常提醒自己不要論斷別人 ... 不在未親身經歷或探討事實真相前莽下定斷 ... 自己其實在不知不覺間於某程度上已對某些肢體下定斷 ... 想到神在以賽亞書中declares: "for my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways." (Isaiah 55:8) 感覺羞愧 ...
我願我能更明白神的心意, 走在祂的計劃之中 ... 更願 ... 知道這個會是一個很大的挑戰, 但我真的希望能幫助神放在我身邊的家人, 朋友, 弟兄姊妹等 ... 幫助他們進入神的計劃 ... only and only God's plan!! 共勉之~~
Thursday, December 01, 2005
Just a random thought
hm ... is everyone's definition the same? Lately, somehow this pop up in a conversation ...
"is it naive or stupid??"
Hm ... I dunno ... it's hard to draw between the lines sometimes ... but I guess a follow up question would be .. "do you want to be naive or stupid then??"
I'm yet to make my own conclusion, if at all ... how about you??
"is it naive or stupid??"
Hm ... I dunno ... it's hard to draw between the lines sometimes ... but I guess a follow up question would be .. "do you want to be naive or stupid then??"
I'm yet to make my own conclusion, if at all ... how about you??
Saturday, November 26, 2005
憐憫
昨天早晨第一次在自己駕車時有bumping事件 (feel like bumping car in "reality") ... 在差不多到達目的地時, 我進入轉左lane, 可能地面積雪較多, 車子未能在預期的距離停下, 結果bump into 前面的車 ...
當時有點驚惶, 因為從未試過碰到人家的車子... 但神真恩待我, 對方好友善, 當下車檢察車時, 發覺對方的bumper 上有少許的"花痕" (scratches). 他猶豫了一會然後說: "沒有關係, 只是很少的事罷了" ... 跟著還問我是否OK ...
當時的感覺是... hm ... 是憐憫 ... 憐憫在現實生活上顯出來是何等的美善 ... 然後想到神對自己更大的憐憫, 心裏感恩不斷~~
當時有點驚惶, 因為從未試過碰到人家的車子... 但神真恩待我, 對方好友善, 當下車檢察車時, 發覺對方的bumper 上有少許的"花痕" (scratches). 他猶豫了一會然後說: "沒有關係, 只是很少的事罷了" ... 跟著還問我是否OK ...
當時的感覺是... hm ... 是憐憫 ... 憐憫在現實生活上顯出來是何等的美善 ... 然後想到神對自己更大的憐憫, 心裏感恩不斷~~
Thursday, November 24, 2005
Name Change
Now that I'm surrounded by "numbers" over 12 hours a day, thought might as well change my name to a number - to really hide away in numbers ... and "0909" comes to mind ... Aside the fact that it looks like a mirror image of my nick "POPO", it is also a very special date in my life. Four years ago on 0909, I accepted God's invitation and accepted Jesus Christ as my personal saviour.
Four years already ... time flies, and at times I wish it is slower ... But God's grace and mercy are always more than Enough!!
Four years already ... time flies, and at times I wish it is slower ... But God's grace and mercy are always more than Enough!!
Monday, November 21, 2005
差遣我
最近到了讚美之泉的巡迴敬拜聚會... 當中有一首以前從未聽過的詩歌, 歌詞很好... 很觸動自己... 聚會完後, 我便立刻到會場外去購買這隻CD ... 然後記起...
其實這張CD 早在多個月前的書室中看到... 當時拿在掌心, 心在掙扎要否把它買下來... 最後我沒有, 因為覺得message 好像好重, 自己未ready ...
神真是對我這個軟弱的人很好... 永遠都給我憐憫 ... 很多時候真的感到慚愧, 不配, 因自己對神的回應常是遲緩, 但祂總是給我機會 ... 沒有放棄我, 沒有撇下我不理. 當我最不可愛時, 祂仍深愛我...
有時候真的很怕 ... 怕自己對神的愛心不能持久, 會經不起考驗 ... 但我知道祂會幫助我, 會找緊我 ... 雖然前面的方向是怎樣還是不知道, 但願我更明暸神的旨意, 叫我更有信心的, 更有目標的走我人生的路, 榮耀祂!
願意和大家分享這首詩歌, 希望它都成為你的禱告...
<<差遣我>>
主告訴我 如何獻上我的生命
帶希望入人群中
主告訴我 如何付出我的關懷
將溫暖帶入世界
我看到靈魂中的憂傷
孤獨中人的心在角落顫抖
差遣我 差遣我 我願付出我所有
差遣我 到需要祢的人群中
充滿我 充滿我 用祢愛來充滿我
再一次 緊握他們的手
其實這張CD 早在多個月前的書室中看到... 當時拿在掌心, 心在掙扎要否把它買下來... 最後我沒有, 因為覺得message 好像好重, 自己未ready ...
神真是對我這個軟弱的人很好... 永遠都給我憐憫 ... 很多時候真的感到慚愧, 不配, 因自己對神的回應常是遲緩, 但祂總是給我機會 ... 沒有放棄我, 沒有撇下我不理. 當我最不可愛時, 祂仍深愛我...
有時候真的很怕 ... 怕自己對神的愛心不能持久, 會經不起考驗 ... 但我知道祂會幫助我, 會找緊我 ... 雖然前面的方向是怎樣還是不知道, 但願我更明暸神的旨意, 叫我更有信心的, 更有目標的走我人生的路, 榮耀祂!
願意和大家分享這首詩歌, 希望它都成為你的禱告...
<<差遣我>>
主告訴我 如何獻上我的生命
帶希望入人群中
主告訴我 如何付出我的關懷
將溫暖帶入世界
我看到靈魂中的憂傷
孤獨中人的心在角落顫抖
差遣我 差遣我 我願付出我所有
差遣我 到需要祢的人群中
充滿我 充滿我 用祢愛來充滿我
再一次 緊握他們的手
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