Hahah .. can't believe Popo is still as crazy after all these years ... well, here's another proof.
As some of you know that I'm "on drugs" lately due to my stomach problem. Thank God, I'm half way through now .. Yesterday was a great and happy day as it's my dad's bday, so we went out for dinner .. and of cuz there's delicious wine (haha! yes, I quite enjoy drinking nice red wine~~).
Before I take a sip, I was thinking .. "Hm .. I'm on drugs .. am I suppose to refrain from alcoholic drinks." But soon after I'm like .. nah, I'll just taste a bit .. it should be fine. So I took couple sip .. and within a few minutes, I could feel the burning effect in my stomach .. then I realized it wasn't a good idea .. so I gave the rest of my glass to my brother .. and said: "don't think it's a good idea to drink tonight ... you can have more and I can drive!!"
How crazy and silly am I to try pushing my limit!! hahaha
Monday, July 30, 2007
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
身體健康~~
輾轉經過差不多幾個月的時間 [其實又真係唔洗咁耐 ... 係我自己 睇下拖下拖下先再睇下之故], 終於找尋到 stomach discomfort 的原因 ... 係因為一種叫 H. Pylori(XX"羅旋菌)的菌在作怪. 據醫生說有這種菌一定要淸, 因為輕則會胃潰瘍, 胃炎, 但日子久了還未能淸便可能會導致胃出血甚至胃癌. 所以這個一向逃避食藥的人, 便乖乖的聽醫生吩咐去配藥 ...
不過今次都幾"惡" "kan" ... 不單藥較貴, 要一次過食足七日 ... 每日要"kan"八粒"大"藥丸 (excuse me .. it's really a BIG challenge to someone dislike taking medicine!!!). [遲D 影張相過你睇] 不過謝謝神比我有一個好好的心理預備, 皆因兩日後要外遊的我未能開始療程, 足足有兩個星期時間比我作好心理準備及練習 (yes ... I really need it, trust me...)
原來有好多事我都 take it for granted ... 其中一樣便是健康 ... "誰會珍惜當你還擁有?" - 警惕警惕!!
願各方親朋好友都健健康康快快樂樂~~
不過今次都幾"惡" "kan" ... 不單藥較貴, 要一次過食足七日 ... 每日要"kan"八粒"大"藥丸 (excuse me .. it's really a BIG challenge to someone dislike taking medicine!!!). [遲D 影張相過你睇] 不過謝謝神比我有一個好好的心理預備, 皆因兩日後要外遊的我未能開始療程, 足足有兩個星期時間比我作好心理準備及練習 (yes ... I really need it, trust me...)
原來有好多事我都 take it for granted ... 其中一樣便是健康 ... "誰會珍惜當你還擁有?" - 警惕警惕!!
願各方親朋好友都健健康康快快樂樂~~
Thursday, July 05, 2007
Love is ...
[ok .. I'll try to blog more .. but you got to remind me from time to time =P]
Lately, the promotion by Red Cross for blood giving is back .. which reminds me of their slogan "Blood is in you to give" .. which I had once changed to "Love is in me to give, Christ is in me to live" (credit to a friend who complete that last piece for me) ... Yes, this is still a big reminder to myself.
Christians are called to love .. do I really know what love is? I'm not sure, but I'll try and trust that in God's grace I'd know more and more ... Honestly, it is really not that fun a journey; the more I tried the more I am scare and unsure ... But God never fails, he reminds me often.
When I was studying .. I need to read and meditate on 1Co 13: 1-3 over and over again often ... I'm afraid that the more knowledge I gain, the more love I lost .. If my knowledge is only good enough for me to point out what others did not do right or meet God's standard, I'm just being a resounding gong and a clanging cymbal!!! NOOO!!! (Being a visual person, I did picture myself being a resounding gong, it's quite disgusting .. so NO THANKS~~)
Yet .. what is love? I read something today that I really really like ..
"Love is never blind to others' faults. It sees them clearly, but is not threatened. It admits disappointment, but forgives and continues to be warmly involved." (Crabb, Larry. Inside Out. p.200)
I really REALLY *REALLY* agree to what Dr. Crabb said ... to love is not to ignore or pretend others' faults do not exists. I think that is 溺愛 .. "super spoiled" ... not healthy and probably naive, as we are not trying to assist each other to grow to be better ... Love is not to measure how much I will be disadvantaged or how much I might be hurt by the other person, either because he / she is too good or too weak. Love is to be honest to ourselves and to others of the pain we experienced, yet we persistent to be involved ... the persistence to love ... not being threatened to do so or forced to do so by the outter environment or circumstances .. but out from our heart, our willingness.
Jesus lived it out to its fullness~~ Jesus loves us that He is not blind to our faults. He sees through us clearly, but is not threatened. He admits disappointments from our wrongdoings, but forgives and continues to be warmly involved in our lives that he invited us to open our lives to him and promised that he is with us always~~
Lately, the promotion by Red Cross for blood giving is back .. which reminds me of their slogan "Blood is in you to give" .. which I had once changed to "Love is in me to give, Christ is in me to live" (credit to a friend who complete that last piece for me) ... Yes, this is still a big reminder to myself.
Christians are called to love .. do I really know what love is? I'm not sure, but I'll try and trust that in God's grace I'd know more and more ... Honestly, it is really not that fun a journey; the more I tried the more I am scare and unsure ... But God never fails, he reminds me often.
When I was studying .. I need to read and meditate on 1Co 13: 1-3 over and over again often ... I'm afraid that the more knowledge I gain, the more love I lost .. If my knowledge is only good enough for me to point out what others did not do right or meet God's standard, I'm just being a resounding gong and a clanging cymbal!!! NOOO!!! (Being a visual person, I did picture myself being a resounding gong, it's quite disgusting .. so NO THANKS~~)
Yet .. what is love? I read something today that I really really like ..
"Love is never blind to others' faults. It sees them clearly, but is not threatened. It admits disappointment, but forgives and continues to be warmly involved." (Crabb, Larry. Inside Out. p.200)
I really REALLY *REALLY* agree to what Dr. Crabb said ... to love is not to ignore or pretend others' faults do not exists. I think that is 溺愛 .. "super spoiled" ... not healthy and probably naive, as we are not trying to assist each other to grow to be better ... Love is not to measure how much I will be disadvantaged or how much I might be hurt by the other person, either because he / she is too good or too weak. Love is to be honest to ourselves and to others of the pain we experienced, yet we persistent to be involved ... the persistence to love ... not being threatened to do so or forced to do so by the outter environment or circumstances .. but out from our heart, our willingness.
Jesus lived it out to its fullness~~ Jesus loves us that He is not blind to our faults. He sees through us clearly, but is not threatened. He admits disappointments from our wrongdoings, but forgives and continues to be warmly involved in our lives that he invited us to open our lives to him and promised that he is with us always~~
Friday, June 01, 2007
"Thy Will Be Done"
My heart was weary last night ... triggered many many thoughts ... and started worrying ... but then suddenly God reminded me of a song we sang in Good Friday Service - "Thy Will Be Done." Can't help but open the song book and read the lyrics again ... It speaks to my heart, it comforts me ... I know no matter what, He is in control!!!
"Thy Will Be Done" - Lani Smith, Neil Lorenz
When my spirit is heavy ... With a weight I can't bear,
Help me reach for your hand and know it is there.
Thy will be done, O Lord,
Thy will be done.
I will walk through the valley;
If I stumble and fall,
Your light shines to guide me,
O Lord, over all.
Thy will be done, Thy will be done.
I can bear any burden and grow stronger each day,
With you there to guide me and show me the way.
Thy will be done, O Lord, Thy will be done.
O Lord, be my shepherd, I trust in your care;
I can travel my road for I know you're there.
Thy will be done, O Lord,
Thy will be done, O Lord,
Thy will be done.
Thy will be done.
Thank you Lord~~~
When my spirit is heavy ... With a weight I can't bear,
Help me reach for your hand and know it is there.
Thy will be done, O Lord,
Thy will be done.
I will walk through the valley;
If I stumble and fall,
Your light shines to guide me,
O Lord, over all.
Thy will be done, Thy will be done.
I can bear any burden and grow stronger each day,
With you there to guide me and show me the way.
Thy will be done, O Lord, Thy will be done.
O Lord, be my shepherd, I trust in your care;
I can travel my road for I know you're there.
Thy will be done, O Lord,
Thy will be done, O Lord,
Thy will be done.
Thy will be done.
Thank you Lord~~~
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
The insane popo
While I'm waiting for my co-worker .. I'll use this little time to blog a SUPER funny incident of the CraZy PoPo ..
I was pretty tired these days with lots of stuff going on ... Not so much as physical tiredness but stressed and mental tiredness .. so that's actually worse for me.
Having noticed that I was tired, my senior manager said, "why don't we go down to get a tea?" (we were out at a client site, so we do need to go down to the ground floor to get a tea). So we went.
As usual, I got my hot water, the tea bag .. got 2 milk, opened one, poured it into the tea, and threw it to the garbage .. then opened the other one and poured it to the garbage too .. then ... OOPS ... where should this empty package go??!!!! ARRRR .. I ACTUALLY poured it to the garbage!!!! HAHAHAHHAA .. I just couldn't help laughing .. and when I told my co-workers later tonight .. I couldn't stop laughing that my tears went down too ..
That's silly popo losing her mind~~
I was pretty tired these days with lots of stuff going on ... Not so much as physical tiredness but stressed and mental tiredness .. so that's actually worse for me.
Having noticed that I was tired, my senior manager said, "why don't we go down to get a tea?" (we were out at a client site, so we do need to go down to the ground floor to get a tea). So we went.
As usual, I got my hot water, the tea bag .. got 2 milk, opened one, poured it into the tea, and threw it to the garbage .. then opened the other one and poured it to the garbage too .. then ... OOPS ... where should this empty package go??!!!! ARRRR .. I ACTUALLY poured it to the garbage!!!! HAHAHAHHAA .. I just couldn't help laughing .. and when I told my co-workers later tonight .. I couldn't stop laughing that my tears went down too ..
That's silly popo losing her mind~~
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
The missing roti
Staying late in the office trying to catch up on work .. but as usual you can never anticipate the unexpected .. Someone came and have a BIG question .. so we spent couple hours trying to figure it out and finally layout all the questions we need to ask the client. By then it's 8:30pm. Fortunately, I ordered some Indian food through the firm's system, so the food's been there waiting for me for hour and a half ...
When I went down and saw my food, I realized my roti (whole wheat bread) was missing ... not sure if someone took and consumed it accidentally or it was never delivered .. but it's missing .. all is left is my main dish - Indian curry seafood. Being hungry I decided to eat the curry anyway .. It was delicious .. not very spicy .. but after awhile my stomach ached. Not sure if cuz I was overly hungry or if it is the effect of the curry in an empty stomach. *sigh* .. I blamed it all on the missing roti ... but may be it's stupid of me anyway ... knowing that my stomach is not in very good shape lately, I should have think twice before eating curry on an empty stomach.
Stupidity again ... oh well ...
When I went down and saw my food, I realized my roti (whole wheat bread) was missing ... not sure if someone took and consumed it accidentally or it was never delivered .. but it's missing .. all is left is my main dish - Indian curry seafood. Being hungry I decided to eat the curry anyway .. It was delicious .. not very spicy .. but after awhile my stomach ached. Not sure if cuz I was overly hungry or if it is the effect of the curry in an empty stomach. *sigh* .. I blamed it all on the missing roti ... but may be it's stupid of me anyway ... knowing that my stomach is not in very good shape lately, I should have think twice before eating curry on an empty stomach.
Stupidity again ... oh well ...
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
More valuable than birds!!
It's been really busy, yet I cannot stop praising my Lord ... for He never abandon me and continue to lead and guide me everyday.
Last week was extremely tensed and stressed due to issues arised at work. One of my immediate bosses had to ask me to come in and work on a Saturaday. [Knowing that I have other commitments and have volunteering at church, he seldom requests me to come in on weekend. Of course, he felt bad asking, but still need to face the reality.]
Having to work on a Saturaday on top of long hours already put in on weekdays of course is not the nicest thing, but I can handle that .. it's not news. What stressed me was the inability to see how to get things resolve at work, at the same time having to lead praise team and worship on the same Sunday. Although it is one of the rare time when I start thinking about the flow and songs etc early (like a month ago!!), in the middle of the week I'm still not satisfied, feeling lacking of some elements, worrying that the flow doesn't tie w/ the sermon topic. At times, I'm frustrated: frustrated that I am delinquent in identifying the element, frustrated at the numerous coordination for practices, frustrated at the lack of unity, frustrated at lack of time ... frustrated at being yelled at cuz I was late for dinner after practice. Frustration was the theme ... and I felt so alone.
Of course, being me, I tried hard to control myself and not to let the frustration take off and affect my daily life / contacts .. but I know deep down there's this frustration that I need to deal with.
Amazingly, on Friday's bible study the passage chosen by pastor talked to me - Luke 12:13-34. The part that really speaks to me is v.24. Then I keep asking myself, why am I worrying? Is my God not big enough for all these? Why am I worrying when I honestly really did the best I could under the circumstances with "good" intention. God sees cuz I'm more valuable than birds. I felt a bit better and had a great practice that night.
But He knows me well ... concerned enough that I might take on the burden to myself once more that as soon as I walked in my office on Saturday, He reminded me again that I am more valuable than birds .. not to worry. On my desk in the office, I've kept this calendar w/ a bible verse for each day. [I always like to get my dates right before I work (cuz we are in such a deadline driven enviornment) that one of the first things I do when I walk in my office is to turn the page to the correct date .. and the passage for Mar 3 is Mt 6:26 "Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?"
As soon as I saw that I almost cried .. I was deeply touched. God does not only assure me that I'm not alone, He's there w/ me. He also keeps reminding me I'm more valuable than birds. Thought I had a better grasp of my value after these years .. but He knows way more about me .. hahaha .. Yes, it is a very comfort and touching feeling to know that God speaks to me through scriptures to encourage, comfort or even rebuke.
Result, if u are interested .. No it wasn't done; but I was able to make it home for dinner that day, thus I was happy. Still need to resolve and put this pressing issue to an end hopefully by this week ... Actually this month will be very pressing for time .. 4 jobs on the go concurrently (what's best is a couple have multiple FS to issue!!), assignments due, various meetings / practices. But I'm not overly worried, cuz He's able. Let's keep practicing to rely not ours, but His strength. =)
Tensions are always there .. I'm very thankful and grateful that my Lord always lead and guide me through a step at a time~~
Last week was extremely tensed and stressed due to issues arised at work. One of my immediate bosses had to ask me to come in and work on a Saturaday. [Knowing that I have other commitments and have volunteering at church, he seldom requests me to come in on weekend. Of course, he felt bad asking, but still need to face the reality.]
Having to work on a Saturaday on top of long hours already put in on weekdays of course is not the nicest thing, but I can handle that .. it's not news. What stressed me was the inability to see how to get things resolve at work, at the same time having to lead praise team and worship on the same Sunday. Although it is one of the rare time when I start thinking about the flow and songs etc early (like a month ago!!), in the middle of the week I'm still not satisfied, feeling lacking of some elements, worrying that the flow doesn't tie w/ the sermon topic. At times, I'm frustrated: frustrated that I am delinquent in identifying the element, frustrated at the numerous coordination for practices, frustrated at the lack of unity, frustrated at lack of time ... frustrated at being yelled at cuz I was late for dinner after practice. Frustration was the theme ... and I felt so alone.
Of course, being me, I tried hard to control myself and not to let the frustration take off and affect my daily life / contacts .. but I know deep down there's this frustration that I need to deal with.
Amazingly, on Friday's bible study the passage chosen by pastor talked to me - Luke 12:13-34. The part that really speaks to me is v.24. Then I keep asking myself, why am I worrying? Is my God not big enough for all these? Why am I worrying when I honestly really did the best I could under the circumstances with "good" intention. God sees cuz I'm more valuable than birds. I felt a bit better and had a great practice that night.
But He knows me well ... concerned enough that I might take on the burden to myself once more that as soon as I walked in my office on Saturday, He reminded me again that I am more valuable than birds .. not to worry. On my desk in the office, I've kept this calendar w/ a bible verse for each day. [I always like to get my dates right before I work (cuz we are in such a deadline driven enviornment) that one of the first things I do when I walk in my office is to turn the page to the correct date .. and the passage for Mar 3 is Mt 6:26 "Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?"
As soon as I saw that I almost cried .. I was deeply touched. God does not only assure me that I'm not alone, He's there w/ me. He also keeps reminding me I'm more valuable than birds. Thought I had a better grasp of my value after these years .. but He knows way more about me .. hahaha .. Yes, it is a very comfort and touching feeling to know that God speaks to me through scriptures to encourage, comfort or even rebuke.
Result, if u are interested .. No it wasn't done; but I was able to make it home for dinner that day, thus I was happy. Still need to resolve and put this pressing issue to an end hopefully by this week ... Actually this month will be very pressing for time .. 4 jobs on the go concurrently (what's best is a couple have multiple FS to issue!!), assignments due, various meetings / practices. But I'm not overly worried, cuz He's able. Let's keep practicing to rely not ours, but His strength. =)
Tensions are always there .. I'm very thankful and grateful that my Lord always lead and guide me through a step at a time~~
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
繁星 stars
星期五晚上在繁忙的都市中看到天上又多又亮的星, 真是有點愕然! 然後我便記起於前一晚睡前的一個禱告/感覺 ... (話說) 因為我愛星, 於房中貼了一些夜光的星星. 那晚躺在床上看著這些"星星", 想到神的祝福便如星般在我生命中, 不斷的閃燃, 又多又亮. 千變萬化, 永遠都數不完, 數不盡. 感恩過後, 我刻意地記著自己這番話, 因不想忘記 ... 星星是神對我祝福的記號 ... 想不到第二天晚上便看到真的星星!! 真的要好好數算神的恩典. 然後星期日的回應詩是 - 數算主恩. 多奧妙~~
On Friday night, I was surprised to see many stars twinkled in the sky. Could clearly see them even in the city!! Then I recalled the prayer / feeling I had the night before ... 'Cuz I like stars, I have some glow-in-the-dark stars stick in my bed room. Starring at them that night, a thought came to mind - God's blessings are like stars in my life, twinkle continuously, abundance in quantity and in quality ... stars are the signs of God's blessings to me .. and how wonderful it is that I was able to see REAL stars shining in the sky the next evening!! Really need to count His blessing. It didn't stop there ... on Sunday, the response song is "count your blessing". How amazing~~
On Friday night, I was surprised to see many stars twinkled in the sky. Could clearly see them even in the city!! Then I recalled the prayer / feeling I had the night before ... 'Cuz I like stars, I have some glow-in-the-dark stars stick in my bed room. Starring at them that night, a thought came to mind - God's blessings are like stars in my life, twinkle continuously, abundance in quantity and in quality ... stars are the signs of God's blessings to me .. and how wonderful it is that I was able to see REAL stars shining in the sky the next evening!! Really need to count His blessing. It didn't stop there ... on Sunday, the response song is "count your blessing". How amazing~~
Monday, January 22, 2007
愛得太遲
愛得太遲 ... 一首已熟能詳的歌, 但從未仔細看過它的歌詞, 今天突然有感而發想看看便 search 一 search. 結果發現它不只是一首如我想一般的情歌, 當中的一些歌詞更叫我思想 ... 自己由其喜歡它上半節的詞:
~我過去 那死黨 早晚共對 各也紮職以後 沒法 暢聚
而終於 相約到 但無言共對 疏淡如水~
真的很寫實, 像是很多現代人的寫照...
感謝神, 我仍有一些老朋友可相約暢聚, 雖然要約一個大家都方便的時間並非易事, 但不至於沒可能. 不過亦有一些朋友真的因時間及距離而疏遠了. 真是可惜!
~日夜做 見爸爸 剛好想呻 卻霎眼 看出他 多了皺紋
而他的蒼老感 是從來未覺 太內疚擔心
最心痛是 愛得太遲 有些心意 不可等某個日子
盲目地發奮 忙忙忙其實自私 夢中也習慣 有壓力要我得志~
家人仍是我掛心及關心的 ... 有時真的很想多抽時間多陪他們 - 陪他們做飯, 四處逛, 看影碟, 看電視劇, 但便永遠都好像有做不完的工作 - 忙忙忙像是必然的事 ... 當有時間停下來時, 又是很倦, 想有自己的時間靜靜 ... 真的左右為難! 雖然久不久仍能抽時間陪伴, 但那tension永在, 從不間斷或減少.
~最可怕是 愛需要及時 只差一秒 心聲都已變歷史
忙極亦放肆 見我愛見的相知
要抱要吻要怎麼也好 偏要推說等下一次~
不知你有否常用"太遲"這詞語, 其實自己不多用, 但我也深信及明白有些事不能有 second chance, 需要把握事機. 但我們總被眼前緊急的事所蒙蔽, 所攪亂, 未能常常好好的把握時機 ... 這首歌詞再一次的提醒我 - 不單要懂得如何愛自己身邊的人, 更要懂得如何愛得及時. 因為時光真的飛逝~~
~我過去 那死黨 早晚共對 各也紮職以後 沒法 暢聚
而終於 相約到 但無言共對 疏淡如水~
真的很寫實, 像是很多現代人的寫照...
感謝神, 我仍有一些老朋友可相約暢聚, 雖然要約一個大家都方便的時間並非易事, 但不至於沒可能. 不過亦有一些朋友真的因時間及距離而疏遠了. 真是可惜!
~日夜做 見爸爸 剛好想呻 卻霎眼 看出他 多了皺紋
而他的蒼老感 是從來未覺 太內疚擔心
最心痛是 愛得太遲 有些心意 不可等某個日子
盲目地發奮 忙忙忙其實自私 夢中也習慣 有壓力要我得志~
家人仍是我掛心及關心的 ... 有時真的很想多抽時間多陪他們 - 陪他們做飯, 四處逛, 看影碟, 看電視劇, 但便永遠都好像有做不完的工作 - 忙忙忙像是必然的事 ... 當有時間停下來時, 又是很倦, 想有自己的時間靜靜 ... 真的左右為難! 雖然久不久仍能抽時間陪伴, 但那tension永在, 從不間斷或減少.
~最可怕是 愛需要及時 只差一秒 心聲都已變歷史
忙極亦放肆 見我愛見的相知
要抱要吻要怎麼也好 偏要推說等下一次~
不知你有否常用"太遲"這詞語, 其實自己不多用, 但我也深信及明白有些事不能有 second chance, 需要把握事機. 但我們總被眼前緊急的事所蒙蔽, 所攪亂, 未能常常好好的把握時機 ... 這首歌詞再一次的提醒我 - 不單要懂得如何愛自己身邊的人, 更要懂得如何愛得及時. 因為時光真的飛逝~~
Saturday, December 09, 2006
vent!!
I don't like complaining about work [Well .. to be more exact, I used to .. until I realize it is a minitry God entrusts me, and in it I can experienced Him more and more and enjoy His presence and the joy of Ministry. .. Of cuz, the fact that it is almost impossible to find anyone on earth who really understands and can emphathize your pressure, struggles is also another factor. so I'm better at not complaining ...) ... but I'm to a point that I really need to vent badly .. cuz I've spent ridiculous hours on something that should be quickly done in half a day originally!!!!
Have this pretty simple project in the midst of my much bigger and complex engagement and school work is .. well .. of cuz not what I prefer, but thought it is manageable .. cuz it's rather simple.
I guess we really can't overestimate our ability ... the first time when I saw the file after the senior performed the work .. I was quite frustrated .. but I thought .. well, may be he's never done such an engagement in Montreal .. may be I wasn't supervising enough since I was so busy at the other client ... so I gave him detailed explanation, instructions, and my expectations .. and spent like an hour going through those with him. Yet, when I returned the day before the partner reviewed the file ... I almost "au blood" ... not to mention the details .. so I worked with him to get the files in an ok shape for the partner to review.
The partner of course have some comments on some of the deliverables ... thinking it is just some straight amendment of word documents .. I asked the senior to take care of those on the last day before he is flying back to Montreal ... Coming in the office today (Saturaday) to clear this ... I really don't know what I'm feeling now .. cuz I've been through the frustration, the "au blood" stage .. It needs to be done .. and so I just have to spend the "unbudgetted" time fixing stuff ... Having to deal with all these stuff on top of claiming the client regarding staffing .. is really really really and very very annoying.
Well .. having written the above .. felt I over-reacted .. it's not really a big deal ... may be I still haven't recovered from my super lack of sleep in the past week or so. EQ is thus kinda low .. yet the requests and expectations are non-stop ... Ya .. a bit overwhelmed .. though thank God that I have my own little "sky" to vent~~
Really need to TASTE to fully and truly rely on God~~
Have this pretty simple project in the midst of my much bigger and complex engagement and school work is .. well .. of cuz not what I prefer, but thought it is manageable .. cuz it's rather simple.
I guess we really can't overestimate our ability ... the first time when I saw the file after the senior performed the work .. I was quite frustrated .. but I thought .. well, may be he's never done such an engagement in Montreal .. may be I wasn't supervising enough since I was so busy at the other client ... so I gave him detailed explanation, instructions, and my expectations .. and spent like an hour going through those with him. Yet, when I returned the day before the partner reviewed the file ... I almost "au blood" ... not to mention the details .. so I worked with him to get the files in an ok shape for the partner to review.
The partner of course have some comments on some of the deliverables ... thinking it is just some straight amendment of word documents .. I asked the senior to take care of those on the last day before he is flying back to Montreal ... Coming in the office today (Saturaday) to clear this ... I really don't know what I'm feeling now .. cuz I've been through the frustration, the "au blood" stage .. It needs to be done .. and so I just have to spend the "unbudgetted" time fixing stuff ... Having to deal with all these stuff on top of claiming the client regarding staffing .. is really really really and very very annoying.
Well .. having written the above .. felt I over-reacted .. it's not really a big deal ... may be I still haven't recovered from my super lack of sleep in the past week or so. EQ is thus kinda low .. yet the requests and expectations are non-stop ... Ya .. a bit overwhelmed .. though thank God that I have my own little "sky" to vent~~
Really need to TASTE to fully and truly rely on God~~
Sunday, November 26, 2006
More thoughts on Friday GLC ...
How did your past relate to God??
Giving more thoughts to my past after the Friday GLC, from struggles to growth, I have the following "findings":
My past can be summarized as:
- a journey to know and acknowledge more and more about "God is love"
- a journey of finding and feeling home
- the development of "being stubborn" in what I believe
What did I learn from this reflection?
I truly believe God found me from the lost and not vice versa. Yet, from the reflection above I realized intruitively and unconsciously I was trying to connect back to God inside throughout all these years. I kept trying and trying hard, finding love, to be loved to be precise. At the time, my "best strategy" is to present myself nicely and almost perfectly so as to please everyone whom I ran into in my life journey. That's why even though I seem like a happy girl in appearance (yes, don't you know people like to see a simling little girl than a crying little girl?!!) I was lost ... dunno my identity, myself, my worth is totally based on others' values ... and was hurt deeply when I felt being rejected. But from this "tough training," I learn to understand and listen to others instead of imposing my own opinions (though I find myself getting worse on this!! *sigh*). And most important of all, I have been trying to please my dad the best I can despite how much disappointment and hurt I encountered in the process.
This also reveals why home is soooo important to me. No matter what happened at home: arguments, pain, hurts, cold wars, I still wanted to be home, and I still do. Home is where I want to be and I should be ... I'd feel so lost if I don't know where my home is, and feel so disappointed if I don't know what's happening at home.
Ever since God's love touched me .. I started learning to find my true self. God's love helps me to know more and more about myself, and at the same time, I'm able to learn more about God ... I found my value ... my value is no longer based on how others see me, comment about me .. I know my value is unshakable by others in God's eyes. I started to develop my image and my identity ...
It is interesting that from the process I remembered an instance that I forgot for a long time .. An instance that shows my "stubborness" was evident from waaay back ... hahaha ... I refused to eat one time as I was forbidden to pray before meal. I was about 6 years old then. Of course, I totally forgot to pray after that instance for almost 20 years!!! There were many others since that demonstrated my "stubborness", determination, persistence .. whatever you want to call it ... Hhmm .. I learned couple things from this. I need to be extremely careful in what I take as my value, since I can (almost blindly) keep following what I believe until I hit a wall. Second, I realized I have the "character" to carry something from start to finish, if that's something I truly believe.
Giving more thoughts to my past after the Friday GLC, from struggles to growth, I have the following "findings":
My past can be summarized as:
- a journey to know and acknowledge more and more about "God is love"
- a journey of finding and feeling home
- the development of "being stubborn" in what I believe
What did I learn from this reflection?
I truly believe God found me from the lost and not vice versa. Yet, from the reflection above I realized intruitively and unconsciously I was trying to connect back to God inside throughout all these years. I kept trying and trying hard, finding love, to be loved to be precise. At the time, my "best strategy" is to present myself nicely and almost perfectly so as to please everyone whom I ran into in my life journey. That's why even though I seem like a happy girl in appearance (yes, don't you know people like to see a simling little girl than a crying little girl?!!) I was lost ... dunno my identity, myself, my worth is totally based on others' values ... and was hurt deeply when I felt being rejected. But from this "tough training," I learn to understand and listen to others instead of imposing my own opinions (though I find myself getting worse on this!! *sigh*). And most important of all, I have been trying to please my dad the best I can despite how much disappointment and hurt I encountered in the process.
This also reveals why home is soooo important to me. No matter what happened at home: arguments, pain, hurts, cold wars, I still wanted to be home, and I still do. Home is where I want to be and I should be ... I'd feel so lost if I don't know where my home is, and feel so disappointed if I don't know what's happening at home.
Ever since God's love touched me .. I started learning to find my true self. God's love helps me to know more and more about myself, and at the same time, I'm able to learn more about God ... I found my value ... my value is no longer based on how others see me, comment about me .. I know my value is unshakable by others in God's eyes. I started to develop my image and my identity ...
It is interesting that from the process I remembered an instance that I forgot for a long time .. An instance that shows my "stubborness" was evident from waaay back ... hahaha ... I refused to eat one time as I was forbidden to pray before meal. I was about 6 years old then. Of course, I totally forgot to pray after that instance for almost 20 years!!! There were many others since that demonstrated my "stubborness", determination, persistence .. whatever you want to call it ... Hhmm .. I learned couple things from this. I need to be extremely careful in what I take as my value, since I can (almost blindly) keep following what I believe until I hit a wall. Second, I realized I have the "character" to carry something from start to finish, if that's something I truly believe.
Saturday, November 18, 2006
C1 U21 and U22
C1 U21 and U22
What's the code above?? Haha .. those are the section number and seat numbers of a concert we went to just this Thurs at Roy Thompson Hall ... cheap tickets yet very good seats ... It's a great performance too ... Really enjoy it. So thankful that there's an evening I can be quiet down and enjoy the "creativity" and "talents" of men ... Doesn't that remind us again how great and creative HE is??
Details of concert:
Goodyear Plays Mozart
Wed. Nov. 15 at 8:00 pm
Thu. Nov. 16 at 8:00 pm
TSO conductor laureate Sir Andrew Davis presides over a banquet of outstanding music spanning the Baroque, Classical and Romantic eras. He also contributes his own expert transcription of the towering Passacaglia and Fugue by Johann Sebastian Bach. Harold in Italy by Berlioz casts the solo viola as the main character, a heartbroken wanderer, in a picturesque symphony/concerto inspired by the fanciful prose of Lord Byron. Pianist Stewart Goodyear revels in a Mozart concerto, famous for its dreamy slow movement that was featured in the film Elvira Madigan.
The November 16 performance will be broadcast
live-to-air on CBC Radio Two.
Sir Andrew Davis, conductor
Stewart Goodyear, piano
Teng Li, viola
Bach orch. Davis: Passacaglia and Fugue in C minor
Mozart: Piano Concerto No. 21 in C Major, K.467
Berlioz: Harold in Italy
Some pictures from my little palm .. hahaha
What's the code above?? Haha .. those are the section number and seat numbers of a concert we went to just this Thurs at Roy Thompson Hall ... cheap tickets yet very good seats ... It's a great performance too ... Really enjoy it. So thankful that there's an evening I can be quiet down and enjoy the "creativity" and "talents" of men ... Doesn't that remind us again how great and creative HE is??
Details of concert:
Goodyear Plays Mozart
Wed. Nov. 15 at 8:00 pm
Thu. Nov. 16 at 8:00 pm
TSO conductor laureate Sir Andrew Davis presides over a banquet of outstanding music spanning the Baroque, Classical and Romantic eras. He also contributes his own expert transcription of the towering Passacaglia and Fugue by Johann Sebastian Bach. Harold in Italy by Berlioz casts the solo viola as the main character, a heartbroken wanderer, in a picturesque symphony/concerto inspired by the fanciful prose of Lord Byron. Pianist Stewart Goodyear revels in a Mozart concerto, famous for its dreamy slow movement that was featured in the film Elvira Madigan.
The November 16 performance will be broadcast
live-to-air on CBC Radio Two.
Sir Andrew Davis, conductor
Stewart Goodyear, piano
Teng Li, viola
Bach orch. Davis: Passacaglia and Fugue in C minor
Mozart: Piano Concerto No. 21 in C Major, K.467
Berlioz: Harold in Italy
Some pictures from my little palm .. hahaha
Friday, November 03, 2006
Spiritual Battles
What does “spiritual battles” mean to you?? For me, it was a term to express some struggles we face especially when we are serving God. But lately, through some events, this term actually becomes soo vivid that at a time I was scared;; scared to realize the realness and closeness of the battles around us. Whether you like it or not, admit it or not, you see it or not, it exists.
The reason why it suddenly hits me hard is due to deaths. Starting last year, I’ve been to quite a number of funerals and learned about people I know passed away. This week, I learned another young beautiful talented young lady, I don’t know her too well - she’s a friend’s friend, but we met and had some dialogues before, passed away .. just at age of 27. It is hard to deal with the feeling of loss especially for these prematured deaths. It is even harder to learn she’s actually starting to open up to Christ, or willing to listen and learn more about God.
So this scare feeling hits me when I learned about it … After some thoughts and reflection, I finally aware it’s the realization that the spiritual battles are sooo real and close that frightened me. Think we, at least I for sure, might have 1) underestimated the power of satan and what they can achieve (right, they still are under God’s “supervision” …) 2) overestimated our power on how much we can achieve (or fix); and 3) “over-dependent” (in lack of a better term) on God’s grace.
I think one of the reasons for the above is due to our lack of the alert of being in a battle .. we don’t see that we are in a battle due to the comfort we have here in North America in general. We see ourselves as outsider instead being part of the battle. It is sad to reveal we are actually in a battle yet we do not aware or are not alert about that. But without being alert, we are basically slowly giving rooms/grounds to satan without even realizing it .. (I’m not talking about the “win” of satan re: death .. I’m actually thinking about how we Christians react to these incidences .. something we don’t expect, we don’t want happening - how do we deal with our emotions etc. I believe we might lose grounds there for satan if we don’t deal with them properly.) this is sad. Like Psalm 1: 1-2 .. in order to act out all these .. we need to be alert and aware what situation we are in. Without realizing where we are .. we can basically do nothing, or we do not know what is the right thing to do!
Yet, I am thankful .. thankful for fellowships that God gifted to us .. so that we have support and companion in this battle .. we can talk through things, we can remind each other. Having a strong real fellowship (not just physically attending one) is like a castle – minimize the chance of being defeated. United and fellowship is a common theme popping up lately in my life .. and I’m really really thankful for all of you who “keep” me in fellowship!!
The reason why it suddenly hits me hard is due to deaths. Starting last year, I’ve been to quite a number of funerals and learned about people I know passed away. This week, I learned another young beautiful talented young lady, I don’t know her too well - she’s a friend’s friend, but we met and had some dialogues before, passed away .. just at age of 27. It is hard to deal with the feeling of loss especially for these prematured deaths. It is even harder to learn she’s actually starting to open up to Christ, or willing to listen and learn more about God.
So this scare feeling hits me when I learned about it … After some thoughts and reflection, I finally aware it’s the realization that the spiritual battles are sooo real and close that frightened me. Think we, at least I for sure, might have 1) underestimated the power of satan and what they can achieve (right, they still are under God’s “supervision” …) 2) overestimated our power on how much we can achieve (or fix); and 3) “over-dependent” (in lack of a better term) on God’s grace.
I think one of the reasons for the above is due to our lack of the alert of being in a battle .. we don’t see that we are in a battle due to the comfort we have here in North America in general. We see ourselves as outsider instead being part of the battle. It is sad to reveal we are actually in a battle yet we do not aware or are not alert about that. But without being alert, we are basically slowly giving rooms/grounds to satan without even realizing it .. (I’m not talking about the “win” of satan re: death .. I’m actually thinking about how we Christians react to these incidences .. something we don’t expect, we don’t want happening - how do we deal with our emotions etc. I believe we might lose grounds there for satan if we don’t deal with them properly.) this is sad. Like Psalm 1: 1-2 .. in order to act out all these .. we need to be alert and aware what situation we are in. Without realizing where we are .. we can basically do nothing, or we do not know what is the right thing to do!
Yet, I am thankful .. thankful for fellowships that God gifted to us .. so that we have support and companion in this battle .. we can talk through things, we can remind each other. Having a strong real fellowship (not just physically attending one) is like a castle – minimize the chance of being defeated. United and fellowship is a common theme popping up lately in my life .. and I’m really really thankful for all of you who “keep” me in fellowship!!
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Thanksgiving ...
After some discussions on Thur. I medidated (i.e. focus thinking) on the topic thanksgiving on Saturaday night. A very clear and vivid picture suddenly hit me. It is not necessary a new one, but the impact was big enough for me to remember vividly up to now ...
It is the picture of gifting ...
I don't know if you had similar experience, I do ... sometimes I prepared a gift for someone. For whatever reason, the person keep rejecting to take the gifts with different excuses and even changing contact information so that you cannot reach him / her easily. You might keep the gift for one year .. may be two .. but probably you'll give up after a few years and end up sending the gift to someone else or use it yourself instead of keeping it for the person forever ... At least that's what I'd do ...
During this thanksgiving, I would like to thank the One who kept a gift for me for over 20 years ... and never forget to try to ask me to receive the gift ...
My Lord is amazing that He prepared the gift for me even before I was born. After I were born, He tried many different ways to try to deliver the gift to me, yet I rejected it, excusing that I don't need it until later, and even hid away from Him ... He's patient and never gave up .. that at last I accepted it 20+ years later.
What I found most touching is that .. the gift is the same as what He had originally planned, not discounted or changed by any means because of my rejections etc ...
I really really treasure the gift cuz it is a personal gift for ME, and it is a gift full of love. The gift itself and also spoken through the delivery process ... I'm really thankful that I accepted it ... It's quite disturbing thinking WHAT IF the gift was pull away due to my years and years of rejection and neglection ... It is however make it more valuable that I finally received it ... Can't imagine what a Big LOSS it would be to me if I keep on rejecting, hiding, rejecting ...
Thank you God for the greatest and most precious gift!!
It is the picture of gifting ...
I don't know if you had similar experience, I do ... sometimes I prepared a gift for someone. For whatever reason, the person keep rejecting to take the gifts with different excuses and even changing contact information so that you cannot reach him / her easily. You might keep the gift for one year .. may be two .. but probably you'll give up after a few years and end up sending the gift to someone else or use it yourself instead of keeping it for the person forever ... At least that's what I'd do ...
During this thanksgiving, I would like to thank the One who kept a gift for me for over 20 years ... and never forget to try to ask me to receive the gift ...
My Lord is amazing that He prepared the gift for me even before I was born. After I were born, He tried many different ways to try to deliver the gift to me, yet I rejected it, excusing that I don't need it until later, and even hid away from Him ... He's patient and never gave up .. that at last I accepted it 20+ years later.
What I found most touching is that .. the gift is the same as what He had originally planned, not discounted or changed by any means because of my rejections etc ...
I really really treasure the gift cuz it is a personal gift for ME, and it is a gift full of love. The gift itself and also spoken through the delivery process ... I'm really thankful that I accepted it ... It's quite disturbing thinking WHAT IF the gift was pull away due to my years and years of rejection and neglection ... It is however make it more valuable that I finally received it ... Can't imagine what a Big LOSS it would be to me if I keep on rejecting, hiding, rejecting ...
Thank you God for the greatest and most precious gift!!
Monday, October 02, 2006
Snoopy's new friend
Snoopy has a new friend!!!! Yes ... Snoopy has been alone for the longest time .. He's the only one who actually got to share my bed since I don't even recall when .. but must be the 80s ...
Yesterday, I got a new friend for him ... it's Hamster Popo .. That's actually her *real* name (i.e. not from me) ... hahaha .. I never knew there's such a character with the same name as myself. Anyhow .. since I'm going to watching over her during my friend's absense in Canada ... She does have a very special status cuz of my friend and cuz of her name .. and thus is able to share my bed with Snoopy and me right away ... hahaha .. so happy we have another family member ...
Ooo .. but does that mean I have a smaller bed for myself?? Oh well .. I don't use up that much space anyway .. hahahaha
Come and meet Snoopy and Hamster Popo~~
Yesterday, I got a new friend for him ... it's Hamster Popo .. That's actually her *real* name (i.e. not from me) ... hahaha .. I never knew there's such a character with the same name as myself. Anyhow .. since I'm going to watching over her during my friend's absense in Canada ... She does have a very special status cuz of my friend and cuz of her name .. and thus is able to share my bed with Snoopy and me right away ... hahaha .. so happy we have another family member ...
Ooo .. but does that mean I have a smaller bed for myself?? Oh well .. I don't use up that much space anyway .. hahahaha
Come and meet Snoopy and Hamster Popo~~
Thursday, September 28, 2006
Examen
I am engaged in doing something called Examen lately ... WHY? WHAT? and HOW?
Let me get into the WHAT first ... Examen is basically an exercise which you asked yourself two questions: a) What am I most grateful for today? b) What am I least grateful for today? The idea comes from Dennis Linn's Sleeping with Bread, a book that I'm currently reading. Why would I pick up this book suddenly? It all go back to the nice lectio divina experience I had one Friday morning .. and the book was listed in the Bibliography of the material. (That would probably take another blog entry to explain and describe).
So .. WHY? An easy answer would be I am currently dying for some directions as to where to proceed in my life. There are options: just that none seems really feasible / workable .. or am I just being lack of faith? I want to explore more ... and find and walk on a path that really utilize my best to achieve the most! If you know me long enough, you know I'm a firm believer of God's guidance. But God's guidance doesn't jump out from nowhere ... so I'm hoping to engage in these activities to really reveal His guidance and also make myself more sensitive to His guidance. Examen is a good tool, I believe, as it helps me to reveal what gifts and passions God had and had not given me.
Being a science student (well .. back in high school) and one who likes to think, I do try to find out the root cause of my own behavior .. but w/out Examen, I'd just do it casually, meaning only do it when I feel like it. With Examen and getting myself to commit to the Examen, help me be more discipline. I've just started for approximate a week ... Interesting enough, I haven't found anything astonishing so far, mainly just reconfirming my passion ... but I found it a good way for me to explore myself deeper in a different way ... especially to find out what is the one moment I most grateful / least grateful .. some days I have to think really really hard and debate within myself what is THE most grateful or THE least grateful moment. And it is interesting to see that I'm not an overly positive nor negative person .. as in some day I find it easier to come up with the most grateful, in others the least grateful ... Am I really balance?? No .. not that extreme .. hahaha
I enjoy this exercise .. as it gives me a moment to really review and reflect; to see how God has blessed me every day .. and to see my deepest needs, weaknesses etc ... Sometimes we take everyday for granted .. we think every day is the same, but actually every moment is an experience and every day is a new day. Able to review and reflect on what happened in our lives is important to keep at least myself in sanity.
I don't know if it really would give me a solution on my burning desire to get some direction ... but I really enjoy doing it .. so think I'd continue on ... ^.^
Let me get into the WHAT first ... Examen is basically an exercise which you asked yourself two questions: a) What am I most grateful for today? b) What am I least grateful for today? The idea comes from Dennis Linn's Sleeping with Bread, a book that I'm currently reading. Why would I pick up this book suddenly? It all go back to the nice lectio divina experience I had one Friday morning .. and the book was listed in the Bibliography of the material. (That would probably take another blog entry to explain and describe).
So .. WHY? An easy answer would be I am currently dying for some directions as to where to proceed in my life. There are options: just that none seems really feasible / workable .. or am I just being lack of faith? I want to explore more ... and find and walk on a path that really utilize my best to achieve the most! If you know me long enough, you know I'm a firm believer of God's guidance. But God's guidance doesn't jump out from nowhere ... so I'm hoping to engage in these activities to really reveal His guidance and also make myself more sensitive to His guidance. Examen is a good tool, I believe, as it helps me to reveal what gifts and passions God had and had not given me.
Being a science student (well .. back in high school) and one who likes to think, I do try to find out the root cause of my own behavior .. but w/out Examen, I'd just do it casually, meaning only do it when I feel like it. With Examen and getting myself to commit to the Examen, help me be more discipline. I've just started for approximate a week ... Interesting enough, I haven't found anything astonishing so far, mainly just reconfirming my passion ... but I found it a good way for me to explore myself deeper in a different way ... especially to find out what is the one moment I most grateful / least grateful .. some days I have to think really really hard and debate within myself what is THE most grateful or THE least grateful moment. And it is interesting to see that I'm not an overly positive nor negative person .. as in some day I find it easier to come up with the most grateful, in others the least grateful ... Am I really balance?? No .. not that extreme .. hahaha
I enjoy this exercise .. as it gives me a moment to really review and reflect; to see how God has blessed me every day .. and to see my deepest needs, weaknesses etc ... Sometimes we take everyday for granted .. we think every day is the same, but actually every moment is an experience and every day is a new day. Able to review and reflect on what happened in our lives is important to keep at least myself in sanity.
I don't know if it really would give me a solution on my burning desire to get some direction ... but I really enjoy doing it .. so think I'd continue on ... ^.^
Monday, September 18, 2006
Give thanks for such a wonderful home group
Yesterday, I was listening to "Give thanks" .. a very familiar tune that I probably have all lyrics memorized and can "recite" without much thought ... Yet the version I was listening to is a bit different ... it's slower and much *grand* ... so I was able to really "taste and see" the lyrics ... then it moved my heart so deep that I was in tears~~~ Yes ... there's really a lot I give thanks for and I have been giving thanks for ... cuz I know .. without God, there's no me ... at least not the one everyone is seeing now. God really takes me through a lot!! I give thanks for all the goodnesses He gifted me .. I also give thanks for all the challenges for I always found Him there beside me .. walking with me.
Then today .. we had an awesome home group gathering .. I give thanks for my home group .. as I really see how the group grew together .. how our bondings deepen .. how we support each other in our faith journey ... It is true that our faith may differ within the group, some may be stronger, some weaker ... Yet from the sharing I see how we were each others' support to grow deeper in Christ .. It is really amazing and touches my heart. I know that's the fellowship that God really calls us for; that's the church that God builds.
I was just in awe sitting there, listening to brothers and sisters of all ages witnessing the work of God ... life changing witnesses ... God's been doing amazing things among us, but let us not just sit back and enjoy the moment for too long ... I'm sure God has a lot more blessings for us to see and taste ahead ... We haven't reached the goal yet ... Let's continue to taste and see His blessings and doings all along the race.
"Taste and see that the Lord is good ... " (Psalms 34:8)
P.S. I was reading the above scripture one Friday morning with a best friend of mine in a very quiet yet beautiful retreat site ... In green pastures .. w/ quiet waters ... so nice ... When I read the passage ... "taste" and "see" really jumped out at me ... and when I think more on the passage ... I kinda see the following: "see" is more passive .. cuz when something happens in front of us or around us .. we see automatically no matter if you want to or intended to or not. Yet "taste" requires an action of ours ... to willing to experience something, to take that in and to taste it (not swallow) .. it needs a leap of faith. It gave me a challenge at the time, I was asking how was I, am I and will I taste the goodness of the Lord ... Yet today ... I saw it a bit differently ... I saw that God is still in control .. He's still the one taking initiative. He not only let me see .. but let me taste His goodness .. so that I know first hand that He's really good ... that the little faith me can really know deep in the heart that He is good!! I'm still a baby in His arm getting fed!! Hahaha .. got to admit .. this feels good!! (yea yea .. I know .. I can't be a baby all the time .. but just for a little while, ok?? ) But my conclusion is still unchange! Yes, God is good and God is really good!!! With a sincere prayerful heart, I pray that one day my beloved parents can experience His goodness and the love and joy that He brings.
Then today .. we had an awesome home group gathering .. I give thanks for my home group .. as I really see how the group grew together .. how our bondings deepen .. how we support each other in our faith journey ... It is true that our faith may differ within the group, some may be stronger, some weaker ... Yet from the sharing I see how we were each others' support to grow deeper in Christ .. It is really amazing and touches my heart. I know that's the fellowship that God really calls us for; that's the church that God builds.
I was just in awe sitting there, listening to brothers and sisters of all ages witnessing the work of God ... life changing witnesses ... God's been doing amazing things among us, but let us not just sit back and enjoy the moment for too long ... I'm sure God has a lot more blessings for us to see and taste ahead ... We haven't reached the goal yet ... Let's continue to taste and see His blessings and doings all along the race.
"Taste and see that the Lord is good ... " (Psalms 34:8)
P.S. I was reading the above scripture one Friday morning with a best friend of mine in a very quiet yet beautiful retreat site ... In green pastures .. w/ quiet waters ... so nice ... When I read the passage ... "taste" and "see" really jumped out at me ... and when I think more on the passage ... I kinda see the following: "see" is more passive .. cuz when something happens in front of us or around us .. we see automatically no matter if you want to or intended to or not. Yet "taste" requires an action of ours ... to willing to experience something, to take that in and to taste it (not swallow) .. it needs a leap of faith. It gave me a challenge at the time, I was asking how was I, am I and will I taste the goodness of the Lord ... Yet today ... I saw it a bit differently ... I saw that God is still in control .. He's still the one taking initiative. He not only let me see .. but let me taste His goodness .. so that I know first hand that He's really good ... that the little faith me can really know deep in the heart that He is good!! I'm still a baby in His arm getting fed!! Hahaha .. got to admit .. this feels good!! (yea yea .. I know .. I can't be a baby all the time .. but just for a little while, ok?? ) But my conclusion is still unchange! Yes, God is good and God is really good!!! With a sincere prayerful heart, I pray that one day my beloved parents can experience His goodness and the love and joy that He brings.
Friday, September 15, 2006
Writing
I like writing ... yes, like writing more than talking .. may be I'm a slow person, can't take things too fast .. and writing gives me the time to pause, think and reflect. I don't know if you find it this way, but sometimes I find we talk way faster than we think, which results in lots of misunderstanding, confusion, hurt ... you name it. May be it's easier to control our hands than our tongue. Or cuz writing kinda "last forever" that people will be more serious and responsible about it. To me, writing is also a great way for me to express myself, share my thoughts, enhance my creativity ... It also calms me down and help me get my "facts" straight.
Even though I like writing, you can tell I have a BIG problem keeping up with my writing!!! Yes, it's all because of my weakness in overcoming the first step - to sit down and write ... First step is always always the hardest .. and often times I'm too timid to take on the challenge!! But I really do want to do more writing .. Why?? It's something I enjoy doing .. and it is something that help me to understand myself a bit more .. my thought process. It is really fascinating to realize how much we do not know about ourselves ... And who knows .. may be one day, I'll just write!! (will u buy a copy if I really do??) So I really want to take this first step ... may be it's too late .. well .. it's never too late!! Thanks to Olia, my coach, for encouraging me to do more writing. (hahhaa .. yes, I know you encouraged me to do more .. but ... hahahaha .. one at a time, one at a time .. and hahaha .. it's always the one that I'm most passionate about =P )
OK .. really not sure how much I can hold this for (esp when busy season clicks in .. and assignments are due) but I wanna give it a try ... to try to write a little something ... hm.. say .. once a week ... Will you keep me accountable? Yes, we all need support and reminders throughout our lives.. Thank God that I have you!! ^.^
Even though I like writing, you can tell I have a BIG problem keeping up with my writing!!! Yes, it's all because of my weakness in overcoming the first step - to sit down and write ... First step is always always the hardest .. and often times I'm too timid to take on the challenge!! But I really do want to do more writing .. Why?? It's something I enjoy doing .. and it is something that help me to understand myself a bit more .. my thought process. It is really fascinating to realize how much we do not know about ourselves ... And who knows .. may be one day, I'll just write!! (will u buy a copy if I really do??) So I really want to take this first step ... may be it's too late .. well .. it's never too late!! Thanks to Olia, my coach, for encouraging me to do more writing. (hahhaa .. yes, I know you encouraged me to do more .. but ... hahahaha .. one at a time, one at a time .. and hahaha .. it's always the one that I'm most passionate about =P )
OK .. really not sure how much I can hold this for (esp when busy season clicks in .. and assignments are due) but I wanna give it a try ... to try to write a little something ... hm.. say .. once a week ... Will you keep me accountable? Yes, we all need support and reminders throughout our lives.. Thank God that I have you!! ^.^
Thursday, June 01, 2006
笑話一則
繼昨天的一個response, 叫一位好姊妹噴血後, 今日又一力作 .. 不得不記下自娛一番 ... 哈哈哈
話說今天在client site 收拾準備回公司時, 和一好同事用 same time text chat .. 正在此時, client site 既一個同事問問題 ... 應對完畢, 望望個 laptop .. 然後 type in "exit" try to close the DOS window ...
但打後個 window 仲係度 .. 這時才發現原來"個"個唔係DOS window .. 係我之前同這同事既 chat window!!!! 原果你有 sametime ... 你會知道DOS window 同 same time chat window 好唔同 ... 最離期係我由始至終都知道個window 係我同個同事聯絡的 medium ... 今次連我自己都笑到嘔!!!
話說今天在client site 收拾準備回公司時, 和一好同事用 same time text chat .. 正在此時, client site 既一個同事問問題 ... 應對完畢, 望望個 laptop .. 然後 type in "exit" try to close the DOS window ...
但打後個 window 仲係度 .. 這時才發現原來"個"個唔係DOS window .. 係我之前同這同事既 chat window!!!! 原果你有 sametime ... 你會知道DOS window 同 same time chat window 好唔同 ... 最離期係我由始至終都知道個window 係我同個同事聯絡的 medium ... 今次連我自己都笑到嘔!!!
Sunday, May 28, 2006
More bday pic ...
Hahaha ... more pic ...Thanks a lot Ray, one of my best friends, to throw this little "late lunch" for me. (having said that ... Kezia, I'm still not sure why he's one of my friends!!! And no no no .. I never introduced him to you .. may be he introduced himself?? WAHHAHAHHA~~)
Thank you all for taking some time out from their busy schedules!!! Thank you thank you!!!
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